We can try to escape from dreams, but they always come back to you

byisamaglietti

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Updated 4 years ago

Two weeks ago I started the WA program, I launched my site but I have difficulty writing. So I decided to write a little about myself as an exercise to unblock this and start to soften the channel that goes from my mind to my hands to end up on this blank sheet.

My interests

When I finished high school I had to decide what to study, I was very smart and interested on biology. My parents very conservative told me that I had to go for medicine. At that time I already knew that I wanted to enjoy life and really do something I love.

So I said no to medical school and decided to study something that I was more interested in: Food Science. It had everything I liked: biology, chemistry, and it was a career where you can easily find a job when you graduate. But life had different plans for me.

Ten years of traveling

On my 4th year of University I received a scholarship to go to France to study, I was so happy. I went to France for a year, learned French and so much about the European culture, being Argentinian and a Latin American, it is a very different culture and one that passionate me.

Then back to Argentina I wanted more travels so I applied for another scholarship to study an itinerary master on traditional food marketing. And I went again to France, and then Italy, Romania and Spain, to finish in Italy for my master thesis.

Two years learning traditional food, gastronomy and rural development in Europe with people from all around the globe, trying new food products every day, who needs more?

The problem was that, when I finished my studies, instead of starting a normal job like everyone else, I went on a loop of short-term jobs that didn't fulfill me, lots of changes of house, countries, cultures, languages, I used to move from 7 to 15 times a year, it was A LOT to cope mentally, and this period lasted 5 years.

What do you do when you know what to do but you don't have the will to do it?

Of course, it was an amazing life, in the meantime I learned French and Italian and now I can speak both languages fluently. I worked as a sensory analysis specialist and master coordinator in Italy, on a ministry of agriculture as a food quality specialist in Argentina, as a tour guide in Norway, as a project engineer in Paris.

But I was very frustrated because I didn't know what I wanted, and I was constantly changing jobs looking for something better, or something that would give me independence to be able to travel.

In every job, I felt like I was a prisoner of the system.

In April 2018, I was in Norway working as a tour guide and I had an idea. When we were training to be a guide they taught us that we always had to have a line when we talk, a speech that goes from one topic to the other fluently. Then I said to myself, I should teach what I know, I should write what I know!

For someone used to moving around so much it's not easy to make the decision to start a long-term project, did I mentioned that I have commitment problems?

When you don't follow your dreams, life sends you messages

I had many relationships that I sabotaged because I didn't have something that I really love, today I realize that I envied the other person if I saw them on their way, doing something that they liked, or at least doing the same thing every day.

Nature decided for me in two ways, the second one you're going to guess.

In November 2019 I started to suffer from severe migraines which made me leave Paris and go back to my parents' house in Argentina. I could not move anymore, it was time to act and do something for me, to take care of my health and above all to start the personal projects I've been promising myself for years.

In January 2020 I found some affiliate marketing programs and started looking for the best one. Long story short I decided to go for WA and I decided to launch my traditional food website.

In the middle of it my boyfriend left me, he had come to Argentina for me. A guy who I loved very much but as with everyone, I sabotaged him because I didn't have something of mine to live for, when he left me he told me that I wasn't happy anywhere.

This is when nature decided a second time for me: Covid-19 was taking place all over the world and Argentina decided to shut down. My - now ex - boyfriend is 1000 km away from where I am, short distance for Argentina, but in this situation, all distances are long.

Future, I surrender to you, but I will give my all

So here I am, every day fighting so that when this pandemic is over, I have a website to be proud of.

Of course, I want to continue traveling and getting to know cultures, but I want to do it by having something constant in my life that I can take care of and that I hope will soon support me economically.

And I know that in order to do this I had to stop, now because of the quarantine but maybe for a while, until I get the site up and running.

In the end, I never worked from what I studied, only very short periods of time, but today I don't feel as frustrated as I did years ago. Today I know that I was looking for something that would really fill me up, to make me proud. I love what I know, I can talk about traditional food for hours and not realize the time. Today I know I'm on the right track.


If you made it this far, first of all thank you for reading me.
And if you have any suggestions, comments on how to improve I would appreciate it very much.

Stay safe, and take care of yourself in coronavirus quarantine