Complicated versus Determination

I browsed on the lesson about Email Marketing, Creating an Email List and Autoresponders. Why do I think it is going to be pretty complicated? Why am I beginning to feel that I might lack the determination to do it. Why do I think that online business is such a torture?

I feel like I am not me anymore, or that I have become very little of me. I sleep late, I lose track of time, I shorten my meals to rush to my pc, sometimes I don't know what day of the week it is. And all these for my desire to become an online marketer. It seems like a long winding road. When and where do we get to meet MR. SUCCESS?

I need some inspiration. I need more motivation. I need to see that what I am doing right now, all the hard work that I do will lead to something good, something better. Because 6 months or 1 year of work like this without any signs of accomplishment or achievement, I am afraid that my dreams will just deteriorate.

I need to know that what I am doing is right. I need to know that I am not crazy staying up so late at night doing contents and working on my website. I guess, I need to feel some assurance that I am going the right direction.

Oh well, its all " I need, I have to, I am afraid, I am worried, I give up, I don't want to do this anymore". I guess I am just exhausted and maybe saturated for the day. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better.

Sorry guys if I sound like I am whining......I am whining...that's me. Well, that is "scape goat mechnism". So I am done for today and tomorrow is another day. I hope that tomorrow will bring me the light that i need and I hope that tomorrow will be a better perspective for me.

So goodnight guys......I mean good morning!!!