Endings and Beginnings

byDCDT

294 followers

7 years ago

My goodness what a challenging couple of weeks it's been. When I made the decision to go premium with WA, I had a plan. Keep working full time at my Office Manager job for 6 months to a year, finish the WA training, and during that time, build up my online business enough to either be able to reduce the full time job, or reduce the need for jobs 2 and 3...with the goal for year 2 being to reduce the work beyond the online business(es) even more.

Last Sunday (Dec 16), my boss at my full time job changed that plan. He terminated my position, via email, immediately and without notice. Later that same week, he informed me that he did not intend to pay my final paycheck, nor does he intend to pay the profit sharing bonus I have earned for 2018. He has apparently decided that he thinks I somehow misappropriated funds, and he has the third party accounting firm combing through the books in an effort to prove it, so he can justify withholding the money he owes.

Now, I realize none of you know me, but I would NEVER do something like that, and to be accused like this has just about broken my heart. Looking back, I can see there were signs for a few months that he had decided I was over paid, and that he was no longer comfortable that I knew some of the information I'd been privvy to previously. I suspect he decided to eliminate my role a couple of months ago and has been looking for a reason--he's been moody and erratic and very unpredictable the last couple months. But I'm an idiot apparently, because I didn't get it.

I am so hurt and so shocked by his accusations I was honestly paralyzed for a few days. I just couldn't believe it. I don't have signing authority on the bank account, and while I did run payroll, he always reviewed and signed off on every single payroll, so I don't even understand where he thinks I COULD have misappropriated anything. At any rate, none of this is really important. I'm most likely going to have to find an attorney and file a claim with the Department of Labor and go from there.

The more important thing is that while this alters my plan slightly, and is certainly quite the blow to my ego (who doesn't like to believe they are important to the company they work for?), I have realized that this is an opportunity for me. Ultimately, I do believe things happen for a reason. And that bottom line, this is a positive thing for me in the long run. It's a bit of push. It's kind of the universe saying, "well, you started down this road. Let's really go for it!".

And I think that while this is painful and oh my goodness, the timing sucks! and I will have to try and find a temp job or a part time job or something to supplement Jobs 2 and 3 while I try to get the internet thing up and running, I have to admit I wasn't happy in the job; I was bored. I wasn't happy working for that person, he was tempermental and stressing me out. I was dreading going to work every day and that was draining my normal positive energy. This awful accusation thing is going to hang over my head for awhile, but I know I didn't do anything wrong, so he will discover that he's wrong, and he will pay me what is owed, and this will all be behind us someday, and I will be stronger for having gotten through it.

This is an opportunity for me to re-work my day, and build in time to work on my internet businesses every day, along with scheduling my ridesharing/other jobs to try and make enough income to cover our bills--but it's an opportunity to look at everything with a fresh lens. Yes, I still have to come up with a certain amount of money each week there's no getting around that, and that will be very challenging, but I'm a creative girl, and I have had my eyes opened to a lot more ways to pursue income than I had before. The more I can focus those creative energies in the right direction, the more likely I am to ultimately be successful with WA.

I love to write, and writing for my blog has brought me a lot of joy in the last few months (even before I found WA), and I am seeing this as an opportunity to really focus on getting through all the WA training, continuing to write for my blog and hopefully being able to apply what I am learning from WA to make it better, and finding ways to eventually generate some income from doing these things that I love.

Anyways, I just wanted to say thank you to all of you that post your stories, and your challenges and your trainings and your successes. I wallowed for a few days, I admit it, but still came in here and read almost every day, and almost every post I read reminded me that while this is an ending, there's a WAY more exciting BEGINNING in progress and that's what I need to be focusing on.

Thank you for all the positivity in this group, and all the encouragement. I am very excited to see how much I can accomplish in the coming year, now that my plan has been scrambled a bit!

Best wishes to all of you for a healthy and very prosperous 2019!

Brooke