What a Christmas! Never again please! My positivity is strained to its limits!

So, we just finished Christmas lunch, and were feeling full and happy.

The next thing I knew, my husband was lying on the floor and could not get up.

We called the ambulance and he was taken to hospital, and spent the rest of Christmas Day in the Emergency department.

Although not diagnosed at first, it transpired that he had had an acute stroke, but he has been incredibly lucky in that he has full use of his limbs, although his vision and short-term memory have been affected. But he has been told that he should make a full recovery given time. He is trying very hard, and I won't allow him to get depressed

So for the moment, not only his life, but also mine, has changed beyond recognition.

I cannot leave him alone for too long, and the time that I can spend online is severely restricted. I feel like a bird with a broken wing! Obviously my work is suffering, my rank has more than doubled, and to add to my joy my only Premium referral has quit, although I had previously spent a good deal of time trying to help her.

All that is not important when matters of health are concerned, I'm not the important one, but I'm sure you can relate to how I feel! I spend my time geeing up my husband and repeatedly assuring him that he will get well, and trying to make him laugh!!

Butt I now have the complete responsibility for running the entire household, including sorting out all the financial stuff that my husband used to do, as well as all of the house and garden - well everything! And as we used to share all that, it is all a big learning curve as well as a shock!! Not only that, but I also have to sort out all his personal emails, his Ebay business and all his other activities which I really know nothing about! All that leaves very little time for anything else that I want to do personally, and that of course includes my business.

I hope you will agree that I am a positive person, and thank goodness for that, because I need all the positivity I can muster at the moment. My family has been great, but they all have their own lives, and I must confess that I do feel somewhat isolated. I am naturally a very gregarious person and I miss my life!!

So if you have any positive vibes to spare to send my way, I will be eternally grateful.I need all the positivity I can muster!!

I am so sorry if I sound a bit selfish - I don't mean to.

I have been trying to write this for several days, and have at last got round to it.

Anyway, I am trusting to the Universe that this New Year can only get better for all of us, and I wish you all a very belated Happy and blessed New Year.