Cleaning house - Finally free!
After being demotivated due to the ridiculous IRS wait time to get an Itin to start selling anything at all, I ran into another realization.
The only reason why I get demotivated and slowed down is becasue of being in a toxic social environment. I just did a 4 day water fast after one month of intermittent fasting (this is related)
As I did this fast, my mental clarity SKYROCKETTED. I started seeing everything so simply and honestly. As I came across my realities of relationships with toxic and bad people that act as if they are already dead. I discovered my problem, I choose to surround myself with people that are in no way supportive or truly a friend to me or even themselves. They drink, smoke and talk behind each others backs and even have got into fist fights with each other over cigarettes and trashy partners.
I now understand that I am nothing like these people, but their negativity influenced my image and state of mind. Always seeing trash posts on their wall mocking people who are less fortunate than them, on top of beating themselves up with extemly negative memes... I couldn't lie to myself for another second. I am wading through my "friends" lists and cutting of all toxic strings. Anyone who acts fake, pretends to enjoy themselves, anything of the sort I am now simply not a part of.
This is an enourmous victory. Because if I didn't realize this any later, I might have deleted my WA account, given up, and go back to the slave lifestyle of just accepting injustices and behave like a simple sheep. I am now finishing my post that \I left over a month ago unfinished.
I will never be led on by a fake personality or taken advantage of for my "nice" demeanor ever again. Here's to WINNING LIFE!!
- Rowan
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Part of growing up Rowan. Separate yourself from people who are going nowhere.
Yes, this will be a process I will be going through for the rest of my life. My old habits are what attracted these types, simply put - Becoming someone that you truly want to be makes others jealous. They believe they really can't change and for you doing so that is turned into being "Egoistic" or "Selfish"
Its really the opposite, I am now completely selfless / as much as I can be possible. Thank you for commenting !