My Baby's Birthday!

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7 years ago

Today is a somber day for many, thanks to Irma. So many people do not know what will be found tomorrow after the nuclear hurricane has passed....but for sure there will be so much destruction; as if there was not enough already. Most will have to relocate and rebuild, taking months and years to overcome it all. I am so thankful I have a roof over my head. There are a lot of things going on with my health currently, but it is minute compared to others. With my training in the fire and rescue service, medical field, and volunteering with the American Red Cross I feel so helpless that I cannot "physically" help out, but being an ordained minister I can be there in a spiritual capacity.

This morning I woke from a better sleep I've had all week...my headache was gone, I was not suffering from vertigo, and my two beautiful furbabies were next to me curled up so cute. Little did I know that what I suffered yesterday from the barometric pressure change they must have felt today. Both of them pretty much laid around all day, didn't want to play, didn't care to go outside, and would not eat. I had all their little favorites to snack on but they would have nothing to do with them...odd, indeed! As the day went on I felt they would feel better. Not. Finally got them to go out and the RAN back into the house and lay back down. This went on most of the day. Finally got them to eat a few bites late in the evening...otherwise I found them eating grass.

My smaller baby, Mickey, is my rescue from a puppy mill. He kept wanting me to hold him and would just talk to me the way he can--sounds like a little hmm hmmm hmmm--so sweet. We've been through so much together. Most of the time I wonder if he is not the one who saved me instead. Well, he turned 6 today!!!

I remember not long after I got him he went to live with me on a small sailboat I had purchased, very cheap, and he was so cute with the look on his face when the boat rocked! He finally got his sea legs like I did. One day he was walking with me and others on the dock and backed up and fell into the water. I was freaking out, nontheless. Someone had to grab a net to get him out when he was pulled to the other side by the current. Worst part, he never made a sound so if we had not seen him fall in we never would have known it. I was horrified as there at the docks were big snakes, turtles, and alligators---yes, alligators. After that he got the nickname in the marina of "Gator Bait"!

Not long after, when I went back to NC to take care of my sister who was dying from cancer, I fell, broke and dislocated my wrist. After the surgery I had a cast on for months from my fingers to my shoulder. Mickey was so clingy, right with me. Bless his heart when my arm would fall it ended up hitting him over the head. I think it hurt me more than it did him as I cried each time for him. He ate up the attention though, so it was all good!!

We've been here and there ever since, along with my sister's furbaby I inherited when she passed. They both came into our lives around the same time but hers was from a pet store with siblings. Ever since they have been around each other they think they are each others brothers, so it works out--and I have kept them together since her passing.

So, fast forward to present year. While I was in Hawaii helping out some friends, who were really helping me, my cousin took care of my furbabies while I was gone. She is the one who would inherit them if/when something happens to me so I know they are fine there and would stay together. With my health the way it is, not being allowed to work, not being allowed to drive, no income, no unemployment, denied disability twice and awaiting a hearing where I'm told that will take another 15 months waiting, I really do not know if I can keep them with me much longer. I do have food stamps and they love to eat jerky! My cousin will buy them their dog food for me, so that helps there. Technically, I'm homeless, but thanks be to God I have a friend allowing us to stay with her for a while and understands the position we are in, so I am so thankful for the roof over our heads. I am wrestling with the decision whether to go ahead and let my cousin take them so they will have a safe, warm, stable, happy home where I won't have to worry about them and their care. It breaks my heart to think about having to be apart from them permanently. They are the children I never could have. If we are to remain together I know God will make a way as he has been doing all along. But I know they are happy and healthy with her and her little dog, too!

A lot of reflection needs to be done on my part. I'm in the country so it helps to have the outdoors to sit outside and meditate on it all. I just never saw this coming with my health and inability to work or drive but I suppose it is my time to go inward and heal.

Being here in WA has given me a new outlet to create and start being productive again, mentally. Mind you, with the seizure activity I still have a lot of "misfires" in my brain but it is starting to click again. I'm almost finished with one webiste, a little into a second one, and I had an epiphany--I need to get my old materials out from something I was involved in years ago and create a site for that, so now I am in the process of creating that website, too! It's really starting to flow!

Baby steps, baby steps. I pray something wonderful happens that I can keep my furbabies with me and we can be on our own again living independently, loving life, me being able to work and drive again...the sky's the limit, right?!

Well, thanks for taking the time to read about me and my furbabies. I got to go see my birthday boy and cuddle!

Have a blessed night/day.

Keep the world in your prayers.

Hug your furbabies and let them know how much you love them!

Happy birthday, Mickey! Mommy loves you!!

Love and Blessings to all,

Tammy (MoonRaven)