I'm Done

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I'm so done~ I'm so tired, I've not felt good for several days as I apparently had a stomach bug and just trying to get back to what is "normal" for me lately. Tired of fighting the systems, tired of my car being out of commission, tired of not being able to drive, tired of not being able to work again, tired of all the disasters in the world, tired of being an Empath at times--feeling all of this happening and those affected....

With the Melaleuca job, people are dropping out of it left and right so I'm frustrated about that and I'm ready to throw in the towel of being a director for them. I want to mow the lawn but the mower is broke (needs bush-hogged now), need to clean the house but can't get away from the computer long enough these days it seems...thanks WA!...

I've been doing typing for a side business and it's been a pain last night and today but I'm hanging in there. Would hope to have enough money to go out of town this weekend to my Tribal Gathering in Tennessee but I don't see that happening either. As much as I like transcribing, so far this one that has been kicking my butt has gone into seven (7) pages condense font and still going. Now if I could just get paid for the headache....but almost done~

So, hope you all have a wonderful day. I'm going to dig out my walking shoes and get my cane and start walking...not sure where to but gotta clear my head. I'm just done~

Blessings,

Tammy

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Some days are like this...You are taking a positive step (literally) by taking that walk...

This is the hard thing about life, it is hard...Sometimes a little break is just what the body, mind, and spirit needs...

It can energize you, put things into perspective, and open your mind to new solutions/ways/paths...

Not to mention drinking in some of the beauty that is around you, adsorbing some of that energy, and realizing just how special you are...

I hope you have a better day tomorrow! Pulling for you from Dubai!

Cheers!
Dave : )

Thank you Dave. I'm feeling a bit sluggish but know I have to get out there and do it...the first step is always the hardest! It's going to do me wonders just getting away from the computer~

Blessings to you and your family~
Tammy

My house is a disaster, the dogs are overgrown. I am not allowed to vacuum. I did once because I got so fed up. I hurt even worse than ever.

I'm heartsick about what is happening this country. I feel you.

Hope you get to feeling better. I could not believe the difference in how worn down my body has been since this onset~ You take care and don't overdo (again).

Blessings.

Tammy

Stay strong.

Hang in there Tammy!
After the storm there is always a sunny day!

XXX

So true~ I'm working on blowing the clouds away!
tj

How everything going now?

Everything is going to start looking up...soon!! Just believe...

T

Thank you! Sometimes it is just hard to but I know I have to keep the Faith!

Walk until the cobwebs are cleared Tammi!

Thanks Mike. Working on it.

Sometimes you need to get away and re-group my blessings to you.

Randy

Thank you Randy.

Don't blame you, Tammy! Just walk away for awhile. We all have to do this from time to time, then feel refreshed.

I can't watch everything and feel like it's only up to me to fix everything and take care of everyone else, except me. I have to find balance, too. So treat yourself well and come back as much later as it takes to feel creative, again. You will be surprised at how much of a difference this makes!

Meanwhile, we all hope many of your problems will be able to be resolved, little by little, one thing at a time. Just breathe!

Lynne

Thank you Lynne. I so feel I have to get away from this computer~I've never spent so much time on it every day...it's worth it, but then again it's not!

I appreciate your taking time to visit and leaving you kind words. It's just another baby step for me, but I want to take leaps!

Have a blessed day~
Tammy

Hi Tammy,

I feel you.
Please hang in there. Get some rest and what little exercise you can.

Set a timetable for all your activities and stick to it like a magnet.
Write down a list of daily "to dos" and tick off as you go through.

Focus on what is important. Do not be overly distracted by WA internal activities...important yes but...

I know the excellent training here places the responsibility to succeed with us (with some help from WA community). However, I suggest that WA have a more granular & practical mentorship program.
Another level of mentorship where FINANCIALLY successful members, review submitted websites, offer a deeper analysis and point out a personalized winning mechanism for success. Maybe for a nominal fee or credits. It takes time but these can be called Ambassadors Elite, Coaches or whatever.

I may be off, as that may already be happening here.

I can say for a fact that once money is coming in and things are going according to plan, the energy you need to sustain you will naturally empower you in a positive way. Frustration will dissipate.

All the best to you and much success.





Thank you David for your kind words. True, I do need to focus on what is more important--my health at the moment. It's good to be able to come on WA and interact with the community and attempt to work on my site and the training but I can no longer devote my whole day and night to it any longer as I am on burnout already.

I used to be so happy-go-lucky and had a permanent smile on my face and just beaming from God's love...now I'm being tested but trying to keep my faith strong...it's just hard...but we are to be tested near the end-time, and it's true.

Blessings and best wishes for your success,

Tammy

What you are going through I can empthasize with. This is a post I recently wrote. Hopefully it will show you in some way how I emphasize.

Reflections Of Miracles

I thought I would write something about what I have experienced in my life. And I know that there are thousands, maybe millions of people have had much worse of a life experience than I.

I hope that I might be able to help someone that may be reading this right now. To put a little light in their darkness.

You are unique

The universe, and now they’re talking about the Multiverse, is incredibly vast. In fact, so vast that the human brain cannot comprehend the endlessness of it.

Yet, here you are. You are a miracle! In all the multiverses, there’s only one of you! Have you thought of that? Really thought of it? The beauty of it? The astonishment of it?

When you die, there will never be another one of you. Nowhere in any universe known or unknown! You exist to exist! You must exist! Because if you don’t, you destroy one of the most awesome and beautiful miracles to grace the heavens.

The Dark

In my previous life, I call it my previous life because it is so tremendously different from what it is now. But, in my previous life, I was filled with darkness, evil, and lost!

My mother one day gained access to my apartment when I was away. There was nothing in my refrigerator. There was nothing in the cupboards relating to food. There are only massive numbers of empty Wild Turkey bottles. I loved Wild Turkey, because it got me to the numbness that I was seeking faster anything else I knew of.

And I wanted to be numb all the time! Why? Well, I now know there’s no explainable reason for such desire. I was heading down a path that would lead to a self implosion! How, why I got to such a point I could not tell you. It’s worse than a nightmare. You lose everything! Including your self dignity!

Negativity and Value

The negativity that had wrapped itself around my being was so thick you could cut it with a knife! All my thoughts were always negative. I did not believe in myself, and I did not believe in any one or anything.

I did the value anything, including myself. If someone liked me, then there must’ve been a flaw with them. There is no way someone, I believed at the time could like me unless there was some strange and unaccountable reason why. So, even though I said they were my friend I did not value them.

The things that I owned, I did not value. How they got into my possession must have been a mistake and therefore I did not care for them. I went day to day, thinking and acting like a zombie. I don’t know how I am living today! That in itself is a miracle.

Attitude

Reflecting now back on it, I can truly say that for the most part, it was a change; a rather big change in my attitude that prevented me from going down the dark path of destruction.

I remember while in the military I was placed on what the Air Force called ” mobility.” Mobility consisted of being ready at all times to go anywhere under all circumstances and to be ready for combat and survival under no matter what adversity.

Before going on mobility, we would always double check our equipment. And all our personal equipment had to be entirely placed inside of one small duffle bag.

And then, the last thing we checked was our attitude. You had to be ready physically and emotionally to go into a scenario that would most likely would result in your death.

Your attitude had to be in the game. Because if it wasn’t, you would probably be the first casualty flown back stateside in a flag draped coffin.

Lost

So, somewhere down the line I lost my attitude. I wasn’t seeing life in its splendor. I was looking at it through dark glasses that never came off.

It caused me to lose so many things! I lost a house, a wife, a pet and a good paying secure job. I lost a ton of money. A ton of material items. But most of all, I lost me.

I can’t get those years back. I am 65 years old, currently. Forty of those precious years were stolen from me! Since life is a one way trip, they are just simply gone.

And I’m not saying that having a great attitude is a panacea for all that ails you. However, in combination with other helpful things materials and people, it can be a terrific catalyst on your way to recovery.

Amazing Stuff

It is amazing how it works! You would be very pleased in your observation of how a good attitude and outlook in life can draw powerful positive people and things to you.

When you smile, and I know that’s very hard for some of you. But when you smile you not only feel good inside, but you make others observing you feel good inside.

When life deals you a rotten hand and you think to yourself that it is just temporary and therefore something very good is just around the corner, you would be surprised at just how right you would be! And also just know that smiles are actually contagious and they have a habit of getting bigger!

And I feel that love is a natural byproduct of a positive mental attitude. And they are mutually reinforcing.

And lastly, I would like to say that I also believe that God plays a big role as well in a healthy positive mental attitude. I did not say religion. And I’m not here to tell you to become religious. Or to go to any denomination for your self salvation.

What I am saying, is that a personal relationship with God, has helped me in a major way to find love through a positive mental attitude. He is after all the great creator of all things positive!

So wish we had a Love button as well as the Like button! Thank you for sharing that we me/us. . .that was pouring out your soul~
I just feel myself slipping away more as I'm not at a place with my health that I can participate in events that I used to and visit with others, or work, or drive---but I'm working back toward it.

It seems every time I turn around I'm getting all these denials from people and systems that I have paid into to help me in return if needed. The doctors placed me on so many different meds and my body kept rejecting them, which I think at times is a blessing in itself--I hate taking meds.

As far as God, I love and trust God with all my being but at times I feel that slipping of the Faith issue. Being an ordained minister, the times we live in are supposed to test our Faith, but I'm doing some praying against the evilness in our day. Maybe I'm not doing it hard enough. I miss being able to get to my church as well, miss the gatherings and fellowship.

I used to be the most happiest, friendliest person you ever came in contact with--never met a stranger, love everyone and everything. Now it's my patience that is being tested, fully. I was always go, go, go...now it's woah~

I know that I need to just take a deep breath and move forward and not be afraid to fall--dust off and get back up and keep going I must. Yes, something good is just around the corner!

Thank you again for your inspiring words. I will keep you in prayers and if you would do same for me.

Blessings.

Tammy

It's never as bad as we make it. And yes, I too have been tested and I still am. You see, I am an invalid, confined to a bed.

The devil whispers rotten nothings in my ear ALL THE TIME! He trys to win and the more he looses the harder he trys. But I have walked into the light and away from his darkness.

Let the peace of the light find it's way into your soul and calm your fears. And, of course I will pray for you and ask if you would for me as well.God bless...

Indeed I will!

Hi Tammy. Thanks for your post.
I don't know you and you don't know me (yet!) but I DO KNOW that I've felt the way you feel, many times. And I ALWAYS come out of it in the end. Life's a cycle, the seasons are a cycle, the economy exists in a cycle, and our emotions and passions too.
I think your idea of going for a walk is great - everything can wait for a few minutes while you breathe deeply, clear your head and find something (anything) to feel positive about - even if that is just how good if feels to stop, sit down and take a deep breath.
Then you can look around and find a leaf that's the perfect colour, or a spider struggling to spin a web, or a muddy puddle to jump in (remember doing that?) .
Pretty soon you'll start to notice that it these little things start to focus you back to your true nature which is a wonderful, positive being. It's wonderful to be concerned for others, but take the time to look out for yourself too - here's one person in the UK who's sending you some positive energy right now!
(Loving the image by the way).
Have a wonderful you-day.

Thank you so much for your words of wisdom. And I need all the positive energy everyone can send my way. Yes, I remember splashing in mud puddles--oh the fun!!

Blessings.
tj

You're so welcome. There's always a way but sometimes we just need to look in the right place.

Yes, I'm actually texting with my tribe's medicine woman and she has given me great insight on what to do to treat my conditions.

Have faith in yourself
And all that you do
The world will be well
When dreams are held true
There’s no greater power
In heaven or earth
Than one who believes
In their dreams and their worth
The seeds have been sown
There’s nothing to do
Except know the faith
That I have in you
The world is your oyster
So please understand
That all you desire
Is now in your hands

I need a Love button....Like button does that no justice~

Thank you!

Hope you're feeling better now.

I do some, thank you. I just love what you posted. Did you write that?

Hi Tammy

Yes I did. I like writing poetry. It's not going to shake the literary world but I think sometimes it can say a lot. The picture is of my daughter and we took it as the sun went down one day when we went to the seaside. Happy memories. Hope you have a great weekend.

That's precious! You need to publish your work! Not sure if you know about the site www.lulu.com...they offer free publishing. Or www.quora.com to write blogs. Would be worth checking into with your talent!

Blessings to you and your family for a wonderful weekend~now it's technically Fall with Summer temperatures!!

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