Things will always get better-my rant
This is it, the only thing I can change.
I've had a lot of things stressing me out lately. I want so badly to be home for my children. I want so badly for them to not to be without a parent at home. Sadly, I am a single mother. I work late weekend hours. I've said to people before that I hate my hours because I don't get to see my children, but I do, even their sleeping faces are enough to pull at my heartstrings. They don't get to see me though and that is what bothers me.
I was once told by a wise man (my boss) priorities are,; family, work, than anything else (so dating obviously takes the back burner). Therefore my first and foremost duty is to my children! I need to have the time they need to learn from me, develop and grow, into the amazing adults that I am absolutely positive they can be.
What can I do?
I can try harder than I've ever tried in my entire life. To be in a situation where I can be that parent that is there no matter what, working from home. I hate having to call my children at 9:30 at night (if work isn't too busy) on a Friday. To tell them I miss them so much and I love them to the moon and back. Why can't I say that at anytime in the flesh, why the phone?
Things will get better.
If I really give it my everything, my all! I know I can do this!
It starts.
My journal! So I have decided to start keeping a journal. A place to organize my thoughts, write down any ideas I may have. Also a place to vent because being a single mother working weekends, I don't always have someone to talk to (dating is not an option yet). This way I can write down how I'm feeling at the time, than maybe re-read it at a later date to get some clarity on it all.
We do what we have to.
For the good of all people involved. I want my children to look back and realize I worked so hard for them and them only. It was never for me, well maybe for my piece of mind knowing they were well taken care of.
Thanks for reading best regards,
Tanya
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It does come with a price.
You have a real love for your kids, and you should!
You will get to the point that you will be able to be with them more than you have to be away.
Hi, Tanya, you are going to do this the hunger and passion are there when we are living through it sometimes that road stretches out so far in front of us that we just about feel like we will burst before we make it half away to our destination.
That hunger and desire will make it happen you too will look back in the realization that not only did you give it your best shot for you family but other folks will take your lead and follow your example, priceless.
While I am not a single parent, there was a time when I worked full-time Monday through Friday and then drove 2.5 hours to Montreal (I live near Ottawa now) to work 14.5 hour days on Saturday and Sunday, sleeping over at my sister's house.
During that time, I barely saw my kids. When I did, I was often too tired to do much with them, so I have at least a little understanding of what you may be feeling. It was very hard. If I didn't work, I was failing them financially. If I did work, I was failing them emotionally.
You do have to look to the future though. Your kids will understand-- in time, if not now-- how much you love them and how you were willing to sacrifice so much for them. The desire to provide for them, but also be present for them creates an almost unbearable ache, deep down in your soul, which can leave you feeling anxious, sad, angry (at your current situation) and more, but it can also give you immense drive and a singularity of purpose that few other things can match.
You will succeed. You will find your way online and as your business grows, you will have not only more time, but a better means to provide. It will be tough, but your kids are the light at the end of the tunnel. You can do this. You WILL do this.
You are awesome thank you! I know you understand the plight. I really appreciate your kind words and understanding. I was at a road block with my writing and feeling pretty guilty for it. I've recently had some inspiration though, an inner light came on. All I need now is a computer lol. I've been working solely from my cell. I now have an idea, an inspiration and a specific goal. I hope you all the best! Keep in contact, you were a tremendous help in my search.
Thanks,
Tanya
I am glad to hear that you found a way through your roadblock!
Ever since I was a kid, I wanted to be a writer. I wrote stories while my friends played baseball, watched TV, or whatever else they enjoyed. But even for me, there were plenty of times when I was just... stuck. Sometimes the words don't want to come.
What I found useful in those times was just to force myself to write something-- anything-- just to get started. If I was really stuck,with no ideas coming whatsoever, I would even just write the events of my day up to that point in a narrative form. Once I started, the simple act of putting pen to paper and writing something put me in the writing frame of mind and I would find it easier to start creating. Perhaps that would work for you as well.
Anyhow, just know that there is ALWAYS a way forward. Sometimes you might have to really search, but the way is there. I truly wish you all the best and if you ever need to vent about anything, I'm usually a pretty good listener. :)
This is a moving narrative. Thank you for sharing a slice of your life with us. You have the right attitude about family and your children. You will do well. Be patient, and things will work themselves out. Wishing you tranquility and success in all aspects of your life.
Thank you so much! To be honest I have been away from the community for a couple of days. I'm so glad to be back everyone is so motivational. Much love!
This is a beautiful story. You have a clear motivation and that's the key to your success. In this journey there are a bunch of hills and hard work that will have to be done but your family will get you through it and your goals will be met before you know it. Don't ever give up! I wish you the best and much success throughout your journey (:
Thank you! I've had a lot of stress related issues at home so I decided to start a journal but this is honestly my "page #1" just wanted to share. Thanks for your support!
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WoW1 My heart goes out to you Tanya! I wish you all the success in the world doing this program and training at WA and that it is everything you dream it to be! Kids grow up so fast! If there's anything I can do to help, please let me know! I can tell you are a great mom, and we'll get you to that place that you can be at home all the time with your children and have a comfortable income coming in!! :)
I really appreciate your, as well as everyone else's, support here at WA it has been fantastic!
Thanks again,
Tanya
Anytime! And anytime you need to talk you can Private message me here!