Maybe I just needed to sleep
Work has taken over my life, and though I wish I could be here interacting 24/7, it's simply not possible. Yesterday was a pretty good day, but for some reason I was a little irritated.
I'm the type of person who loves to interact with people and make friends, but as soon as I have the slightest inkling that someone isn't sincere, I immediately withdraw and become distant. (cold even) Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm a Sagittarius, I don't know :P
So I got home and started noodling around on WA. It took me 10 years to figure out a keyword to target, and I got some great help from Steveo regarding site health, the length of my blogs, and how the keyword tool works.
I quickly became overwhelmed and as per usual, ended up with a million tabs open. Sometimes I want to succeed so bad, that I give myself these unrealistic expectations even though Kyle said not to. I get discouraged for no reason, although it seems logical at the time.
"I'm not ranking" "I haven't made any money" "This beat site is better than mine" "There's so much competition" "What makes me think people will click through MY site?" and a barrage of other questions that get into my head.
I've been a premium member since Dec. 7th (LOL). I guess I need to take a step back and AGAIN, realize that this stuff doesn't happen overnight. I think some of you know me by now. I'm a results oriented person. In my paintings, beats, and artwork of any kind. I WANT TO SEE THE FINISHED PRODUCT! :P
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm seeing all these people around me (outside of WA as well) having success and because I'm not, it gets me down. Especially lately, it seems like everyone and their brother just can't wait to tell me how great they're doing. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for them, and it's always great to see someone else succeed. Many times it can be inspiring as well. I've always had trouble defining that line of: Being envious vs. being inspired.
It's a tough battle. One of the things I tried to work on in 2014 was not comparing myself to others. Easier said than done.
At the end of the day, sometimes you just need to go to bed. I had not realized that yesterday I was up since 4 a.m. Almost 24 hours later at 12 a.m., I figured it was time to just say f it and go to sleep. :)
Thanks for reading!!