This is a "down" kinda day!

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Depressed!

I'm finding that today is a downer. I have lost a lot of enthusiam and I'm really having problems finishing content. I've started several blog posts but can't seem to finish them. I'm sure its because I'm depressed.

My health doesn't seem to be improving - I'm still stuck in this wheelchair and with my leg ulcer has still not healed, I can't swim or go kayaking (one of the few things I can do and enjoy). My general physician has given up on helping me with my high blood sugar and is sending me to a diabetic specialist. I'm struggling each night to get any sleep and then in the daytime I'm exhausted. I just want to read and nap all day.

Everyday I check my WA stats and after 3 years, I still have not converted any referrals to Premium and now I can't even seem to get starter referrals. My Amazon links are not converting either. Basically I'm feeling a little defeated.

It is unusual for me to not be optimistic and I don't know what to do. I'm wondering if God is telling me that I should quit trying to make money and just be satisfied with what I have. I'm fighting that thought, but it keeps coming back to me. Fellow Christians, do you guys fight with that also?

I'm also missing my daughter and grandsons who are on the mission field. They will be back in the states on furlough in mid-november and I'm really looking forward to seeing them again, but that is six months away. Every time I think of them now, I'm wanting to cry.

I need to get busy and clean my house because my step-daughter and granddaughters will be flying in for a week this coming Tuesday. I am looking forward to their visit but I won't be able to do any of the activities we planned (hiking, biking, swimming, kayaking, volleyball, pickleball). I'll be stuck at home cooking and cleaning like usual and the lady I have that usually comes to deep clean my house is not able to clean before they get here.

Wow! what a pity party I'm having. This is so NOT ME! I'm not a QUITTER! I'm not a NEGATIVE person. I need to start doing something and get out of this crummy mood. I do have some good things happening - I have dinner in the crockpot already. I'm picking up a new car early next week (a voltswagon beetle convertible - so cool!). It will have a custom wheelchair rack installed so I can go places in the convertible now and be able to take my wheelchair along. I will have a new grand-daughter or grand-son in January of 2019. I wwill get to see my daughter and her family while they are on furlough for around 2 years. Which means I'll get to see my two grandsons and the new baby grow for a while before they head back to the jungle.

I just need to shake this off and force myself to think positive thoughts. I know I can, because I've done this before.

I've been reading Dyan's blogs again and this is encouraging. I just need to finish up one "best of..." post and I know I'll feel better.

-Shirley



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Hiya Shirley, I'm a Christian and I understand the depression thing. Charles Spurgeon suffered from it tremendously. I have to admit that occasionally I suffer from it too.

It sounds as if you went with a boot camp site instead of a niche site?

Days gone past a niche site was taught predominately over starting with a bc site so I'm not surprised with all of the frustrations I've been reading about lately.

No worries on the pity party thing. I've been there frequently!!!

I started with niche sites, but as part of the SWAG training with Kyle, I've been working on a boot camp site. I have a site "Growing Old with Diabetes" that is a niche site and a "Bella Vista Online Mall" site that I'm working some on also.

Seems like I'm not very good with the boot camp site. I'm still learning a lot in the SWAG training, guess I need to start applying that to the niche sites instead. I'm going to try to do that this week.
Thanks.

Personally Shirley, I like everything black and white... no grey areas. I would as much doubt and frustration out of it as you can by choosing the site that you love the most and are the most connected to and park the rest.

WA is way too busy now and you just need one thing on your plate. Whether it's your niche site or your boot camp site, elevate the one and park the rest. Once you're successful with one, you'll know what you need to do for the other's collecting dust in the garage!

Best wishes... Lord bless ya'...

Randy

I understand how you feel because I have had a down kinda month. I have a number of blogs started but can't finish them either. Have you been reading and living in my head.
I feel like God probably put us together for a reason, Shirley so Skype me when you are feeling bad. Wait, you may have but I didn't respond because I have been in never-never land myself. My bad!!!
Well now I know so I'm here for you!!!

Tried and True

Elaine

Yeah, maybe we can skype later today.

That would be great!! Maybe that would help both of us!!!

Tried and True

Elaine

My wife and I occasionally debate the need to clean the house before kids and grandkids arrive. My feeling is that they are family and not guests. They all can help with chores around the house. After all, our house is not a hotel and we are not housekeeping staff. Nor is our house a restaurant and we are not the wait staff. But I do have a hard time getting my wife out of the kitchen because she likes to cook.

Hello Shirley,

We are very powerful minds and when we put our minds together, we can achieve amazing things. There is a person called Lynn Mctaggart, who does healing work and she wrote a book called "The Power of 8." You can contact the person below and send her your healing intention.

"Do you have a loved one who needs our healing intention? If so, please send in his or her full name, age, location (town/country), photograph and the nature of his/her illness to Laura Ortiz (laura@wddty.co.uk)."

In LOVE and LIGHT,
Shakanin

Thanks all, I'm forcing myself to get some housework done today and I think I'm going to write a post for my diabetes niche site - I think I can actually finish one for that. I can also pick a product group on my online mall site and do a "best of..." for something I think is fun (like pickleball paddles). I'm also going to Swagbucks and do enough to make a $5 gift card to spend on books on Amazon. I usually download the free ones but this time I'm going to "buy a Kindle ebook". That will perk me up for sure. - Shirley

Cool, I went to Swagbucks and found I had 1300 bucks. used 1000 for a $10 Amazon gift card. When I get it, new ebooks coming.

Hello Shirley,
I joined WA two days back but I’m with the internet marketing for sometime.
Sorry to hear your difficulty.I hope you will come out This situation soon.
I have suggestion for you.
Don’t try to promote WA. ( I think Vegas Stuff put extra pressure on beginners who canot make sales)
MMO niche is competitive.Everyone jumpin to it for big money.
Here what you need to do-
Visit Qurora and look for the topics that you interest.Then help them by answering the questions.
Quora will give you very good insight of your content and make you happy when your answer get Upvotes.
I feel that wiill motivate your blogging journey .
By the way you have very good writing style.If not I’m not going to reply you here. I’m lazy to write and my grammar is sucks.lol

All the very best !!!
Stay strong !!!!

Hi...I know you will be fine because you are aware of the reasons for your depression and you are aware of how to rise above them....focusing on the good. God would never ask you to give up trying to better yourself. Try to find some little enjoyment each day.
Debbie

I feel very sorry for you friend for what you are passing through. All I can say for now don't loose heart, because I am Christian too I know God have never forgotten you and when time comes you will be healed in the way you won't believe your eyes. Keep believing in him, cheer up and keep on praying knowing that nothing is permanent! Be blessed friend!

Dear Shirley, how brave of you to reach out and ask for help. Do you know how often people go into hiding when they face the smallest of battles and leave themselves stranded to cope alone. I am guilty of this often.

You are facing many challenges at the moment. Particularly with your health. What compounds it is that your physical weakness currently is draining you emotionally as well. These are the times when we are most vulnerable and all the smaller things are magnified and consume our thoughts.

You asked if other Christians sometimes question their efforts to try and make money. Well, I can only speak for myself obviously and I know that if I were to put money before God then I would be in trouble. There is nothing wrong with doing what needs to be done to make money as long as we never forget Who our Provider is. So the answer to your question from me is, Yes.

I do at times think that I need to guard against the danger of pursuing money-making opportunities online that are potentially going to soak up all my time. You aren't alone. If the thought keeps coming back to you then really seek God and ask Him to show you.

Read Proverbs 3:5-6 and really meditate on that. It is a reading that I come back to time and time again to anchor my soul.

May you truly be strengthened in your inner most being and thank you for reaching out to those who care.

Fondest regards,

Brian

Thanks, Brian, you sound like a counselor. I'm going to read Proverbs 3:5-6 right now..... ( In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths) That is a great verse to meditate on, I know. My intent is to do just that. I know God has always provided all that I need and even many of my "wants". Like the convertible, we will get next week. I know my desire with joining WA in the first place was to provide supplemental income for my husband and me in our retirement and to be able to donate more to my missionary daughter and a couple of charities I want to support.
Quess I need more prayer about this.

Start with small steps. Pick one small goal. Completing that will give you encouragement. I too struggle with depression. I have to constantly switch activities and interests to keep motivated. I find that setting little goals like choosing a new topic or emptying the dishwasher helps. Best wishes. We are rooting for you.

Thanks, I'm going to fold clothes right now and make a first small step.

Excellent choice. Please feel free to contact me directly if you need anything.

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