Not a Good Day!
Life is happening
I've been working hard on the SWAG tasks and my bootcamp site and not thinking about a whole lot else.
But this morning I got a rude awakening. I woke up to my ankles burning, especially the left one. When I got out of bed, I got into a lighted area and checked them out.
I have little red spots and raised areas of irration on both ankles and they are burning - especially the left one. It looks like cellulitus.
I'm diabetic and right now, my blood sugar levels are not well controlled. I've been taking the easy way and I've been back to eating the standard america diet so my blood glucose levels have been running amuck. They are averaging into the 300's. THAT'S BAD!
Fear
That was 8 months of hell, with such bad pain from neuropathy shooting up my legs that for about 3 months - I was praying to God each night that He would take me home or heal me. There were nights the pain was so bad, I thought of sucicide even.
The ulcers and inflammation got so bad I feared I would lose both feet. (common in diabetes). Actually I've been in this wheelchair since that time.
This is what my feet looked like when I had the ulcers 3 years ago.
So What Can I Do?
- I've been thinking and I'm going to take these steps:
- I'm back to eating keto, no wheat, no sugar, no soy, no legunes, no alcohol.
- I'm starting my fasting again.
- I'm calling my doc today to get an appointment and hopefully get some antibiotics. He may give me prednizone (I dread that because it jumps my blood sugar up enormously).
- I'm praying and asking for prayer from all my Christian friends please. To be honest, I've been doing a lot of thinking about my dreams of financial success here at WA and whether this desire for more income is something I should be pursuing as a Christ follower) Sorry, I know religion is not to be discussed here and I agree with that. But I do need theprayers of my friends here.
I have an appointment with my doc today at 3:30 to see if I can start antibiotics and if I need prednisone. This the first time with this new doctor for something like this since we moved to Bella Vista.
-Shirley
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I wear support stockings Shirley to correct cellulitis ulceration for venous insufficiency. I wonder if that would apply in your case. Best wishes on recovery!
I will ask the doc about that when I see him later today. Thanks for the suggestion. - Shirley
So sorry to hear about your challenge. Our health is critical to everything else. I've been guilty of neglecting mine as well, thinking I could succeed here first and tackle my health later, but unfortunately, it doesn't quite work that way.
Really hope you get things back on track and feel better soon.
As far as questioning your desire for income, it really depends on what you want that income for. We can't eat, drive or wear money... so it's not really a desire for "income". It's a desire for more time, freedom, security, and in some cases material stuff.
In any case, you should never feel guilty for wanting any of those things, for wanting a better life for that matter. And especially security... You never know what can happen in the future; with the economy, with your ability to work, with people you care about needing help...
And I'm sure money isn't your only motivator. The desire to help others certainly motivates you, learning new skills and challenging yourself may be another, acquiring a feeling of independence is also a strong motivator.
Actually, a big part of my desire for additional income is to be able to help fund my 5 grandkids college and to donate more to my missionary daughter's family.
My selfish dream for additional funds has to do with being able to go see visit them longterm in the Wycliffe compound of Ukarumpa in Papua New Guinea. I so hope my health is good enough and I have the funds to visit them in their next 4-year tour in the jungles doing Bible translation work. They will be traveling between jungle villages and the Ukraumpa compound doing their fieldwork. I could see my two small grandsons grow up.
I'm also dreaming of having an RV that will sleep 5 so that Mel and I can travel (I do not do well in long trips sitting for hours - having a motorhome to lie down in sometimes would be so nice). Plus, when my daughter's family is on furlough back in the U.S., they can use it to live in while visiting all the churches and individuals who sponsor their missionary work.
Other desires of mine are to be able to donate to a crisis pregnancy center I used to volunteer at.
My husband and I have a decent retirement income and we will not hurt for money in the future as he has made sure we saved for our retirement years. In his career as a Financial Advisor, he planned and managed our own investments. Of course, having some extra each month would allow us to do a little traveling and make sure we are debt free.
-Shirley
Wow, those are all amazing goals to strive for. You have absolutely nothing to question with regards to your desire for income. Nothing at all.
Shirley so sorry to hear and see. please try to take better care. see my website aboutdiabetesnstrokes.com; Wish you well.
You're in my thoughts Shirley and I'm sending Healing Energy. I hope to hear soon that you're well again
~Shell
I am sending all my positive energy to you! Stay strong! I like your plan and will stay posted! Please get well!
Steve
You are in my thoughts and take care of yourself. I know this can be hard at times but needs to be done. Let us know what the Doc has to say. In my thoughts dear
Don’t worry and we are always here to support you.
Take care and you will recover soon, Shirley.
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Sending you healing thoughts Shirley. Hope you feel better very soon.
~Mark :)