I Don't Know What to Do Now - Advice Urgently Requested
It's been 20 months to the day that I started my site at ChartXGames.com and I I have had my ups and downs, to say the least.
Not usually one for public displays of how I am feeling, I feel at this point it might be necessary.
First of all, for those who don't know me, I suffer from epilepsy and undergo regular siezures, this makes doing something like blogging that bit harder when all you want to do is sleep and you can't concentrate - anyone who also has epilepsy and is reading this will know exactly what I mean.
I mention this because I have been going through a rough patch with my site recently, in that I am finding it hard to carry on, which makes me feel even worse because I love doing it and it's all I have.
I won't quit it but I am finding it harder to concentrate and get excited about my posts.
I have read on some other blogs that this is normal and a lot of bloggers go through these times.
However, there are a lot of reasons apart from epilepsy why I am struggling:
1. Traffic is stagnant; I have read tons of blogs on how to get more traffic and I understand the principles of SEO. But my traffic, after 20 months, is still around 100 user per day - on a good day.
2. The niche I am involved in (video games) is extremely toxic; This isn't news for anyone who know video games, but the industry has changed in a big way. You can expect a tirade of abuse for voicing an opinion. I have had death threats, spamming and even attempts at hacking from the gaming community.
3. Negative actions are common; I will get some views (not many) for my YouTube videos and some arse hole will always hit the dislike button, even when there is nothing to dislike; I report the video game news.
4. This may be most important one. When I go through epileptic depression and I can't write, I feel like I am letting down my frequent users; I know they deserve more and they are coming back to my site because they like it and I don't like wasting people's time.
I often feel like giving up. I don't think I will, but I sometomes struggle to see why I should carry on with so many negative things affecting me.
Is the handful of users worth the WA fees and spending all my time writing for no money? I haven't made a penny yet.
I love what I do, I love my site and I love the WA community. I don't know what to do and if I will be able to continue doing this, which would be a shame as I feel that I have built something good, and I am proud of it.
Please help and provide me with some of the great advice I know everyone here at WA can do. I value the opinions of everyone here and although I help people a lot, I too need help sometimes and I know it isn't shameful to ask for it.
That was a ramble, but thanks for reading if you made it the end without scratching out your eyes.