I Lost A Baby I Didn't Even Know I Had.
This is something I was just not prepared for and I have been floored by it.
For the last week plus I have been having feelings of discomfort in my abdomen. On Friday 12th January I thought it was a bladder infection so I treated it as such... the pain went away a bit so I thought it was resolved.
A few days later I thought I was constipated and took a laxative... all seemed a bit better after a good session in the bathroom.
Then on Saturday I was having quite bad pains and called my doctor and we agreed I would see him on Monday. Then the pains got a little better and my husband and I did our regular Saturday night steak and chips night while watching a movie.
When it came to climbing into bed the pain got so intense that I got scared my appendix was going to burst... I drove myself to the hospital because I didn't want my husband to wake up the kids in the middle of the night.
While driving there I was hoping and praying that it wasn't my appendix bursting.
When I got to the hospital the doctor told me she wanted to do a pregnancy test - I laughed and said but I got myself sterilized when my second baby as born!
The urine test came back positive. I reeled from the shock of it, how would I cope having another baby? What about the school fees and the expenses, how would I get all my work done....
But slowly it was sinking in, I was in hospital with excruciating pain in my abdomen... and the doctor was finished talking...
I probably had an ectopic pregnancy, which is when the foetus is in the tube, not in the womb.
I was pregnant and my baby would never make it. I wouldn't have to worry about coping with another baby.
The pain I was having was because I was bleeding internally and they had to operate to remove the foetus, to take out all the free fluid and to stop the bleeding.
I am healing and on the way to recovery, but this is so much more than just an operation - the emotional side will take a lot longer to heal than the physical this time.
Thank you for all the kind messages of support - I am so blessed to be part of this incredible community.
And a huge thank you to Lauren for sending on my message: A Message From Lynne Huysamen
I will be taking it so slow in the coming weeks, so if you don't hear from me I'm just taking some time to deal with all of this!
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I am so sorry you had to go through it. Praying for a sooner recovery, both physical and emotional.:)
I am always inspired by your example and feel a great need to offer words of comfort and support. Your courage and resilience are being tested, so I pray that you can come through strong.
My heart hurts with you and your family. I don't understand why things like this happen, it is all decided above my pay grade, but I can assure you that you are able to handle this.
There is nothing that I can say to take the hurt away. But I will be thinking of you during this difficult time. I will include you in my prayers and I am here if you need anything.
God Bless,
Craig
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I’m so sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family.