Have you ever?

byiJared

1.4K followers

6 years ago

Just stopped?

Not neccessarily because you wanted to...even though you knew you had to...one day?

Maybe cause you don't know how to just stop, or what happens next.

That's my thing right now. Like a really bad car accident for lack of better way of creating an example.

But the logistics are there...in life like that. You can have an accident and everything has to stop, you don't have any control over it, especially if you sustain injuries and have to heal and recover.

All the worry and grief and stress is there but it will linger in the background, yet everything will seem to actually stop.

I have never dealt with losing my wife to cancer, in the sense that I don't know how to deal with it. Something, sadly, anybody can relate to in losing a loved one. A spouse makes it more difficult but there is always somebody who has it worse.

I am a consistently inconsistent person who loves being in this community. I have made money using the platform and the skills...

I also get to reach out and hear words of support when they are most needed and again the community is here for me to share with.

That means so much more to me right now then money. But I want some! Money too that is.

I think I am going to sell my house. And the more I talk about it as scary as it is I don't see a future living in a home that is no longer a home in my heart.

My biggest worry seems to be taking care of my 6 pets.

I spend money like water but having $150000 in the bank and debts paid makes me believe I can do anything I want anyways.

That is supposed to be the point. Even if sometimes if feels like maybe you hit a brick wall.

I have had some things happen since my wifes has pass9ng to lead up to all of this...as life usually works.

But push has come to shove and where there needs to be action, there will still be a pause...

Some time to let everything sink in. And how to move on.

So even though we think like we can never just stop everything in life, no matter how hard it is at the time, I think anyways, we have to remember things do happen for a reason. Regardless of all the choices you have made along the way. The universe plays it parts too. You can't and never will have that luxury.

Nothing too good or too bad happens for too long. LIfe doesn't just happen, life happens just.

I want to know if you have ever just had to stop...and breath. Cause I am and as scary as it is, there is some freedom in realizing, that absolutely nothing around me going bad, will kill me.

My problems in life won't kill me, cause they are just challenges.

The sign is a smile because I am stoping to forgive myself and learn how to live my life in my new chapters.

I can write anything I want. Just have to stop and think about what makes me smile, what makes me happy.

Thanks for letting me unleash the emotions, like I am talking in a big room with a whole bunch of friends who really care.

Thanks for Reading!

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