Does Lack Of Confidence Sometimes Make You Feel Stupid?
So I think y'all know that I am doing the SAC this year (Super Affiliate Challenge). This was a big step for me, because I have certain OCD traits.... Things have to be perfect... If they're not, then I have to redo them until they are. I have been know to tear out pages from my notebook because my notes weren't neat enough!
I trained as a nurse back in the day, (BC) and as a staff nurse, in charge of a ward, if my notes from the previous day were not neat enough, I would re-write them before the start of the shift.. If something is worth doing, its worth doing well and all that... But I can make it an artform...
However, this isnt so great when you have deadlines. I have to keep the deadlines given to me by the SAC. Its important to the success of my business and thats what I want more than anything else. Like my title says 'Dream Big & Make It Happen.... I am dreaming big and I am going to make it happen by keeping to schedules set in the SAC.
But I feel itchy on the inside... It has taken me a few weeks to understand what is wrong. I have been thinking that it is the disruption to my schedule with the travelling with my son - we are off to Rwanda and Kenya next week. But its not that, thats part of it but not the whole of it.
The bottom line is that I can't spend the time on each article that I would otherwise do. I have to keep going and thats the real cause.
I have taken various steps to try and reduce this frustration (inside itchiness) and I have gotten comments on my articles, to see what others have to say and whether I am actually hitting the mark with what I consider to be less than perfect articles. The comments ( apart from the ones that didnt bother to read them, and I have discounted them) have been totally positive, they have been really excellent comments and it made me feel really pleased that they could not see the lack of perfection.
I realise that this is lack of confidence....
An example.... As some of you know, my son was hospitalised in Namibia with food poisoning the night before his tennis tournament started. I was all for changing flights and going home, no way could he play, his preparation had been ruined by this.
He wanted to wait and see how he was when he got on court. Well as you know, he went on to win not only the doubles final but the singles final too..... So his preparation was horrendous yet he pulled it off! He had confidence in his tennis and he said he knew when he did get on court, that he could do this! Perfect preparation for the tournament wasn't necessary, he had the experience and ability to cope.
As part of the SAC we are to blog at WA three times a week... I havent managed this yet, because I really dont think I have anything to say that anyone would be interested in. I think I am pretty much run of the mill. Everyone knows more than me at WA and I don't honestly feel that I have anything of interest to tell everyone. Yes they all know about Asana, and Tailwind, and Dropshipping and low hanging fruit... the sorts of things I am writing about on my website. I have no new news.
But when it comes to my website, I don't have this problem because my target audience is one that knows less than I do about affiliate marketing and I really want to tell them everything I know .... hence the OCD on the writing front. It has to be perfect, I can't forget a thing otherwise I am not doing my best by my audience.
This is a difficult road for me right now, I know others face way worse, but I will not give up, Im not a quitter, thats one thing that I am proud of. I have big dreams and I will make them happen !