Starting Over
It's been a rough year. It's actually been a rough couple of years, but last year was...difficult...to put it mildly. I have achieved a lot, but I had to overcome a lot to do it, and, in the end, it didn't save me from the sacrifices I had to make.
What it did do, though, was strenghthen my resolve to change things. It has made me firmer on my stand to improve and live my own life. It's made me look at the steps back as my move to get a running start.
Ten months ago, I lost everything. My home, my clothes, my belongings, my security. Even my cat, who is staying with my ex-husband, waiting for me to come get her. I nearly lost my car, which would have been really bad, because I was living in it. I was working two jobs and still managed to find rock bottom.
So, I had to make some sacrifices. I moved back in with my parents, all the more difficult becuase I had to leave Colorado, a state I loved for its mountains and beauty and high places. I had to leave my grown children whom I have never spent so much time away from before now. I had to leave my beloved cat, my constant complanion, with my ex-husband until I can find a place for us to live. I had to leave everything I knew and start over.
I am 49 years. Starting over isn't easy at my age, and especially not when I'm starting over in another state, with everything I know and love out of reach. I have to meet new people, start new relationships. I've also head to look at this move as a stepping stone, not as a set back.
In Colorado, I belonged to a fantastic writing group, one that helped me write a book I'm really happy with. But the group I was able to join in Nevada helped me publish that book. In Colorado, I had great connections that helped me network within that state. In Nevada, I have been able to network across a wider area. I still miss the beauty of Colorado, but I have opened my eyes, and I have found beauty here in the desert as well (just look at that cover photo!). I have found history. I have found roads that I have never traveled that are just waiting for me to drive them.
I opened my email a few days ago and found an offer wtih WA that I could afford if it hadn't been for the fact I promised to help my son buy a computer so HE could get out of his go-nowhere job. But, this morning, he found what he needed on a Black Friday sale that left me with enough money to pay for my WA Premium as long as I made a few more sacrifices. It will be a lean few weeks, but the things I've given up for that time have not been neccessities but wants that I didn't really require.
This is seriously, the most positive step I've taken in a very long time. I plan to make the most of it.
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I cant say I have been there but I can only imagine. However you have written a book. I hope a best seller. You have your head held high and I can just tell you are going to be one of the community at this time posting that you are making money and its all thanks to your hard work and Wealthy Affiliate.
Its obvious you are no stranger to sacrifice. I hope as of right now this minute you never ever have to look back and everything is about moving forward.
Ever need a hand feel free to message.
Dale
Hi Kelli,
Looks like you have been through some challenging times, with only a few silver linings in your cloud, writing and getting your book published would have been a huge confidence booster.
Sometimes we do need to take those hard steps back in order to take huge steps forward. At the time it can feel like all is lost, when we reflect back it can be the thing that made all the difference and saved the day moving forward.
Coming back to WA may be the things that will let you recreate and reconnect with your life and better still let you craft out the life of your choosing.
Much respect to you, and best wishes for the new life that you are going to create for yourself.
Alex
Just remember, things are always darkest just before the dawn. The sun is coming up, and so are the opportunities. You will get much more than your cat back...you'll get your life back.
The sun is just peeking over the hill...hold on just a little longer.
Joe