Surreal, Scholarly Sunday
Between painting rocks, having deep existential conversations with peers, sharing some poetry for a talent show contest and the like, yesterday was quite surreal for a Fall Retreat. To be honest, I am amazed by how social and outgoing I can be. It is interesting how, so far, my mood has changed drastically now that I have the space to be an adult. Likewise, I don't feel nearly as anxious as I used to, so perhaps a change of environment/scenery DOES make all the difference.
That said, I am not nervous and excited in some respects. Notably, I have a proclivity to doubt myself, my abilities, and my stamina. However, I always prove myself wrong: I am more than capable than I give myself credit for.
Yet, whilst I am more mindful and thereby confident, I do feel as though I am kind of projecting myself to be someone I am not. This is probably because I am having some issues adapting to being completely on my own. Nonetheless, I am quite authentic and willing to up my game and get familiar with the routine.
As such, I am going to make progress with time management every day in every way. I am going to expand my mind, vision, and heart. I am going to recognize and release all fears, concerns, insecurities, doubts, and anxieties. Above all, I am going to shed all thoughts, behaviors, and patterns that no longer positively serve my journey, spiritually, intellectually, and otherwise.
I am going to continue to do great things, such as delight in the fact my latest post was indexed less than twelve hours after it was published. Also, in every area, I am going to do very excellent in college. And while it is my goal to get straight As, I am going to allow the college experience to flow and flourish.