On the Verge of Giving Up for Good
In spite of high expectation and having overcome many things in my life in the way of being able to manage an online business, and the sheer optimism of the new year, and that things started off very well, I began the Super Affiliate Challenge with equal optimism.
The first month went very well and, except for blogging on here and using the chat engine, completed the tasks with little difficulty.
Bam! Bam! Bam!
During the month of March, I lost my desktop computer, where I was doing the work and fatal engine failure in my motorcycle for the second time. The engine previously went out of time and one of the exhaust valves hit the piston, causing an expensive ordeal.
This only got worse over the next months. I had to replace the engine in the motorcycle, followed by more problems after this that prevented me from riding it, all of which are now resolved, finally getting my transportation back near the end of May.
It goes without saying that I got nothing at all done in my business!
Things looked up for awhile until throughout June, I began having all kinds of problems with my laptop. It began sutting down for no apparent reason, but then found it to be a damaged hard drive. I have been having problems with the computer since I dropped my backpack (with it inside) during a flight back in November.
With little funds, I tried to nurse the hard drive along by trying to quarrantine the damaged area by creating a partition in that area and then making it unallocated. This is a dual-boot system, as I am reverting from Windows 10 to Linux. Four times I had to rebuild this system throughout June. On the fourth time it failed, I got paid by Wealthy Affiliate for a recurring yearly sale.
Wealthy Affiliate has bailed me out again! I should say it was a previous article that I had written that did this, but it wouldn't have happened except I had become a member of Wealthy Affiliate.
At this point, I don't know if I can recover from being so far behind in my work. It has turned out to be one of the worst years I've had trying to work on my business. Could I have used the public library? Yes. Could I have used other similar resources? Yes - after having restored my transportation, but I was already way behind by that time. After years of all kinds of issues hindering me from doing this work, I am becoming convinced that this is something I will never be able to do.
In spite of this, I used my latest WA funds to purchase a new hard drive for this computer. I have had this computer up now for a week and have done a massive keyword research spree, to try to make up for some of that over the lost months of the Challenge. At this point I have been using Ubuntu 18.04 for over a month, but much of that time, during use of a faulty hard drive. Nonetheless, I have gone past the learning curve enough with the operating system to be comfortable with it.
Windows 10 is purposely located in a very small partition at the end of the hard drive. Eventually, when I no longer feel I need to have it there to go back to when needed, I will be able to remove its partition without affecting the Linux installation on here (I learnt the hard way to arrange things this way!) Microsoft has to go! It's been in my life too long. It wasn't too bad, especially at first when I was using DOS 6.22 and Windows 3.1. Today, Microsoft takes control of the user's computer and this is not the operating syetem I want! Nobody is going to tell me when I receive updates, which programs I MUST keep on my hard drive...
NO!!!
After almost eight years on here, I have had thoughts of succombing to the constant nagging of outside corcumstances. One just keeps on following the former. I have had people on here urging me to move forward, sometimes quite firmly. i am way behind now, but have once again, resolved issues. I would be letting myself down by giving up and dropping out. I've been at this with my shortcomings for far too long now to look back.
All I can do at this point is go forward and not give up. I'm still here, now with a stable system in my home and hopefully a repreive from developing issues for enough time to perform an article marathon and attempt to cover lost ground. There are people behind the scenes here at Wealthy Affiliate who have gotten behind me and pushed. Aside from letting myself down, I would also be letting these folks down as well.
Here's my long-overdue blog. Hopefully the following will report once again, progress in my work - not prequisites and stories of struggle. I would like to do a similar type of blogging on here that Jay Gumbs recently has done, because I know that would bring results. They however, won't be daily, so that when I write them as needed, I truly have something to say about my work.
At the time trying to restore my home workstation, at least one of them, I have throught seriously about letting my domains expired but I just paid for my main campaign for another year with a new operating system I can be proud of, a new hard drive and new experiences ahead. I was on the verge of giving this up. I've gotten past the issues ... again. They almost pulled me down, but again - it hasn't happened.
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Hi Daniel
Whooo-hoooo - you have prevailed! Which means you are a WINNER! ;-)
I was just reading this morning about positive affirmations and it said that though our minds often times fight with "factual" affirmations (the ones that says "I am rich, I have lots of money"), it said that our minds are less inclined to fight statements that we choose to believe.
Thus "I choose to be rich", "I choose to have lots of money" or "I choose to believe that I can succeed", are all much more believable, than the former.
Anyway, that was just a side-note - I just remembered about it and thought I'll share it. ;-)
May you enjoy a lovely rest of the week!
Sharlee (Chocolate) + Vanilla IceCream
Thank you for our conversation this evening. LOL! it's 6:30 am and just now unmade the bed! It will be late when I get up but I'm going to bed now! I will answer the rest of the replies when I get up.
I want to be fully alert when I read the one above yours. I'm too bleary to read hers now. There's actually two at this point above.
Ha! it's getting daylight right now! Better get some sleep. It will be a short one.
Daniel
Oh my goodness Daniel - 6:30 am and you are only NOW going to sleep? There goes your beauty sleep! ;-) LOL! Have a good rest! ;-)
Sharlee (Chocolate IceCream)
Life is full of challenges but they make us stronger. Keep on keeping on.
https://youtu.be/pFn0R1fY_P8
Bryanb
The video was too fast and I could not read it but it was followed by a different video with the same message, which I thoroughly enjoyed.
The very important thing in the message is that it all comes from God and sometimes we don't get what we ask for, and indeed,
He gives us what we need. Thanks for the link! Here's the one that followed...
https://youtu.be/NLcvprEub5k
Thanks Debbie. I have started research and hopefully tomorrow get the first ones out.
They are ... until the next time albeit, I don't have to go anywhere for about three days, and then to visit my sister just an hour and a half's train ride from here. Being there a week, all I am taking with me is the laptop and nothing else except clothing and toiletries of course. If I use those days properly, there is no reason why I can't get some production out of them, and I mean seriously. I shouldn't have any problems for the next two weeks until I have to do some drywall installation near the end of the month.
I tell you, life can hit so hard at times that it seems like there’s no way we can recover. I’m pretty much going through that right now with finances as it has become such a massive struggle to pay my bills and have enough money to even buy groceries. I got myself into this financial mess and I’m very determined more than ever to get myself out of it and so now I’m working as hard as I can to get my websites earning revenue to relieve this pressure instead of just solely relying on my full time job. I understand the need to step away, but I hope things work out for you to where you’re able to stay.
I had to step away. There was little I could do though public libraries did become an option after I repaired the motorcycle and made it safe to ride.
One of my websites has, and still gets hits, though not as often, due to the sheer lack of new content. My income has not stopped though it's not very good. This month I did make two sales, one being a yearly recurring sale.
I've seen the potential of this business model over and over again, and have even seen it in mine own efforts in an instance of launch-jacking.
The last five blogs written on here, including this one, deal with the same issues - life getting in the way, which it has big time so far this year. Each one of these blogs (last four anyway) were all false starts. Each time I thought I was past the issues and nope!
Though I have replaced the hard drive, much of my data and their backups are in danger because the storage devices they are on are in Old Age status according to the built-in diagnosis tools on them. Data recovery sucks and it's terribly time-consuming! I'm not out of the woods yet though I have stabilized current activities.
The same to you insofar as success and getting your campaigns producing revenue for you. There is little else more satisfying to me anyway, than to be producing income through a business I have created and not redundancy benefits. I know it can be done and I hope the best for you in this regard.
I am going to follow through with a 30-day writing goal - something I have never done. The goal will be steep but it will help me restore my position in the Challenge.
This computer is stable and is no longer an issue.
You might want to take a look at my blog about this, I did the challenge 3 times 30 days - 30 post challenge - Schedule
One thing I noticed some time ago is that my Certification Course work got cut back. Some of the tasks I completed were undone, apparently a result from one of the platform updates.
I would start the 30-day challenge but would need to concurrently get the Certification Course back up to par. I never did the final installment nor finished the one before that. I am much farther ahead with the BootCamp Course. I decided not to complete the Certification Course because this produces results for a niche website when I am interested in an authority website instead.
What about Day 22 issues when not having completed the course? What kind of trouble would I run into and, would it be safe to start now if I review what I've done already, redo what's been removed and complete the course by the 22nd day into the Challenge? I do have a handle on what to do though review is never a waste of time knowing things have changed since I completed what I did in the course.
For three years, I was also under an income limitation regarding my disability but will be completing the final income report for that, which will allow me to move forward and though unlikely I would have gone beyond that threshold, now I can and not worry about it. This threshold actually comes to an end this month on the 17th! I just got the mail for that not even an hour ago. I have the report already for that done up and ready to go. It was one of the things holding me back but had the issues above not occurred, I would have pushed forward knowing it takes time for the effort to produce results.
I plan and will be using all of the resources on here to get things going the way they should be.
The certification course is totally separated from a 30 Day challenge, their have been lessons updated, due to the new UI. I have seen unchecked boxes too, I just checked them again, I have done the certification course 3 times
I should go over it again because it's been many years actually - back to the time when it first came out - a long, long time ago.
Do you include paid advertising (PPC) in any of your campaigns? This is where I get hung up in these courses.
No I never used ppc or paid for visitors, there have been some changes, so I would go over this briefly, to see and refresh your memory
When it rains it pours! I know that feeling all too well! No matter how much it sucks, sometimes things happen to us for a reason. Maybe May was a time where you needed to focus on other things than WA. I know it can be frustrating to feel like you've lost so much time, but every day is a chance to start over. Heck, I have been here forever and just in the past few months have I finally gotten around to going through the training step by step.
It's easy to let the success of others have a negative effect on your own personal progress, but you need to remember that everyone approaches things differently. While one person may be able to fly through the training and create content in a very short amount of time, it may take others weeks just to get one post done.
Make small goals for yourself, and slowly start adding things in as you get more comfortable. Before you know it you'll be back up to speed, wondering what you were so concerned about. Life sucks sometimes, but it's all in the way you respond to it!
It doesn't take much to knock me off the horse, but it would do any good to not get back on after all, the horse is just standing there now.
It won't be the end of issues. I have too many loose ends, very old equipment and lack of money. I have health issues as well and am on redundancy. To make money to get over the large expenses, I have to find work. These things come up unexpectedly and I try to get by and not well known for preparation. I have better control over my environment now but as with everybody else, things keep coming up and from years of kicking the can down the road, it's all caught up with me and it can't be kicked any further.
One of the first things to get affected is my online work, especially when it involves the very tools I need for it. I have tried the public library. Libraries are not as they used to be, especially around the computers. They're noisy and disruptive, considering the clientele that uses them. You get assigned a computer and it happens to be next to one with a bunch of people gathered around a gamer on the next one with someone's butt right in the side of your face.
That's understandable. For years I have been faced with a large amount of debt, a lot of which went into collections when I lost my job, the first time, many years ago. Then to finally get re-hired in the marketing field, to have my dad get sick, and a year later my Cancer diagnosis. Every day is an uphill battle for me, as I don't have the mental or physical capacity that I used to before Cancer. The finances are improving, but we're still a bit of ways before we're completely out of the woods.
Right now I am lucky to get one post done a week on my blog, but I am also focusing on a lot of e-commerce endeavors, which I am working on cutting back on.
I understand the issues with the library, haven't been to one in years, but you're right, it's not the quiet environment it used to be. Hopefully, things will work out, and if all else, just do as I do, take it one day at a time.
There is a library, a smaller one than the one in this area, that I used to go to when I lived there. The computer area shares the reading room and it consequently was quiet. Not so in Temple Terrace. It kind of shares the reading area but the people that use it are more of the inner-city, approaching ghetto residents. Some of them don't know how to behave in the library.
I have health issues but fortunately cancer is not one of them nor do I need to purchase medicine on a regular basis. My best alibi is to eat properly and exercise. I do get up from my desk and walk regularly. I used to have lots and lots of collection agencies coming after my butt, though much of that was medical.
I have never owned a credit card and will never own one for consumer credit. I'd be in a lot of trouble by now and learnt about them which knowledge prevents me from ever getting one. It's all seduction as much as most people who don't know what's behind consumer credit deny and try to tell me I am wrong.
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Dear Daniel
One evening soon go outside into your back yard or on your patio with a nice cup of coffee or your favorite drink. Have bare feet or a pair of sandals you can flip on or off to feel the grass beneath your feet.
Look up that the stars in the universe and think these thoughts. I am here and I am strong. I am good at finding solutions to many problems and challenges as they arrive. I am of positive thoughts and ideas. I have a strong warriors heart.
Dear universe I ask you to help me accomplish the goals I have set for myself. I am positive with your help and my strength and intuition, thoughts and ideas the achievements I am able to accomplish will be astounding, for all my worries and troubles are behind me and I will not dwell on them for I know the more I think of trouble the more I get trouble.
I am stepping forward to a new realm of interest, excitement and ground breaking blogs with finished products and ideas on pages in my website. Dear Universe I eagerly look forward to your positive influence and ideas and thoughts you present to me as I go over the work I have done so I can fine tune it to make it shine.
I humbly thank you and am grateful for all the help and support you have presented to me. Even if i was not in the mode to realize it. At night as I went over things that happened over and over again, occasionally I think how lucky I was that different money and actions happened to help me on my way again.
So Daniel from me to you. Don't give up you are resilient you come up fighting and you step up. You are stronger and more intelligent and intuitive, than you think you are. You are your own Cornerstone in your life and you are making it happen.
I have learned to reflect thoughts and action of gratitude. For me it has been a life changer huge big time. I am my thoughts and Blessed will you and I be.
Best of Luck to You Always.
The Sun Shines Every Day for You Even if You can not See It.
All you need to do is stop for one Second and Feel it.
Joy
I appreciate the encouragement and instruction. It is the Lord who has created the universe and everything in it and I petition these things to Him.
This sounds like the popular Law of Attraction because you have mentioned the universe. I do agree with the cause-and-effect part of it because that is natural law, and self-fulfilling prophecy that is expressed as attraction, but I'm leery of how the created has divine control outside of natural law.
Under circumstances that I believe in (such as Wealthy Affiliate and the business model it teaches) I am stubborn to let go of, knowing the potential. I have had breaks from the almost constant battle during which I myself have had spurts of success.
I am also impatient and wonder sometimes if perhaps the struggles I have are providential or not. If so, there is nothing I can do against God's will. If not that I'm providentially not to be engaged in this work, then it is purely as the message below (the butterfly) implies, that this is a matter of overcoming obstacles much like a professional runner wears weights during training.
I have to admit that sometimes I find it hard to stay positive during persistent problems that just will not seem to abate. The title I used above is there because I did struggle with those feelings, especially for the length of time I've been here, only a very tiny fraction of those that were here when I arrived remain and almost all of them that i know of have successfully made full-time income out of this. Though my income is consistent with but one month since it started when I didn't have any recurring sales, my income should be quite significant by now.
As the trend has been going, I received two pieces of mail, both from the government, which require my immediate attention. I'd rather be doing keyword lists than having to dig through faulty hard drives and boxes looking for information needed to provide income reports. This is not going to stop me from putting out some content today. My goal is to do a writing marathon and try to get as many articles outlined as possible besides completing at least two today. My aim is to publish one and set a WP schedule for the publishing of the other tomorrow. If I can get a third, great. That will be scheduled for the day after tomorrow to be published, and this way I will need to do the SEO/SM for one article per day.
You are right though...
The answer lies not with us, but our Creator.
When I awoke late, the first thing I noted was that we were having a torrential downpour. A minute later, the sun was shining through the rain.