Bucked Off the Horse - Again

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No sooner had I paid this year's WA subscription back in March, I developed severe dental problems which is today, forcing me to seek and find odd jobs to pay for the expensive treatments that I need. The costs, with insurance, is outrageous! I am not a young man and the labourious work burns me out, now effectively spending nearly all of my time devoted to lining some dentist's pocket with hard-earned funds.

This was very soon followed by the loss of my computer about six weeks ago.

I won't go into further details. It would be more like offering up excuses. I can't get my head around why I just can't break this vicious cycle no matter what I have done to make up for former acts of irresponsibility when I was younger and facing a Platform that offers just about everything, besides taking action, needed to succeed.

It all looked so awesome in February and I thought I finally had it licked. I am ashamed of myself and discouraged. It should not be like this. I'm out of the game again and the end is not in sight. It's like repeatedly trying to put the same large jigsaw puzzle together and have someone, once again (probably looking no further than mine own clumsiness,) come along and kick the table asunder, scattering the pieces all over the floor.

I see the new updates on the Platform and the daily reports from a member that used to help me, who has rightlfully closed the door on me. I know I'm to be publishing blogs weekly on here, but I have little else to say for now. This blog is is stark contrast to those of that member's, but I realize I'm on mine own to struggle through this until I'm able to defeat it.

It's like looking at it all through a display case. It's like some invisible force keeps repelling me from advancing in this, but I am stubborn and refuse to give up because we are creatures of choice and refuse to believe in the existence of such a thing.

This unfortunately, is all I have. Once again, on my way out to make a few more dollars that will go to the dentist. I made a sale this month - a yearly subscription. It too will be swallowed up. It astounds me that I would be making anything at all based on my performance, but this remains consistent even after nearly three years of doing nearly nothing.

After pushing, going on nine years here at WA, all of this scenario should be LONG GONE by now, and not be depending on wage labour as primary income! I apologize for this negative report. The positive side - I am not giving up. This set of circumstances MUST have a breaking point somewhere along the way. I know it's there. I can see the cracks in it. I am determined to break through...

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Hi Daniel. I'm sorry to hear that life has been difficult for you. Dental work is no fun even under the best of circumstances! I applaud your determination to break through. This is just a little setback. Nothing more. A lot of people can't say that they've had a WA yearly subscription signup. Don't give up! Alanna

I'm a stubborn person so I certainly won't give up and after 8+ years here, don't plan on it.

I awoke at 5:45 this morning to start my work, since I have to leave for work at about 10:00. I did a lot of work last evening and put my findings on Notepad as I always do. I forgot to save the work before going to bed and awoke to find the login screen!

Windows Automatic Update!!!

Sure enough, I lost all of my notes and it made me so mad.

So, I spent the morning instead, trying to find an alternative to Notepad besides Notepad++, which is an advanced text editor that I don't need for regular note-taking and other plain textual documents.

Windows could not detect this program when I went to change default programs. Of course! more work...

I had to research this, finding that the old version of Change Program is still packaged with the OS, but now takes a round-about way to access it. That too, would not see the new program but has a way to select the desired program for replacement.

This led to unhiding files and folders and I went to the wrong place to show hidden files and folders - in the Properties section - though "hidden" there means just that - you HIDE everything in the folder and subfolders.

Thinking I probably selected the wrong one on accident, I went to unhide everything but could not fix this. I have finally fixed this by tracing back to the exact screen I had and unchecked the box that I had checked - after two hours of this crap!

I selected Ted Notepad and it is now in place. It has the autosave feature that Notepad does not. Windows Update has caused its share of problems and eventually I would like to just drop Microsoft completely and go with Linux, but that too, has a learning curve and more time - and some of my programs will not work in it.

In Windows 8.1 it is still possible to run Windows Update when YOU want to, not when Microsoft wants to and I did not think of this when I got it all up and running yesterday. So, here we go again! I have to go through and redo my research.

I am working on a review for Affilorama and took advantage of the 30-day trial to get inside it and experience it for myself.

Hi, Daniel.
Paul here from up north here in Ontario, Canada.

Your post is heartfelt. Anyone responding to it has gone through something similar. I actually lost a molar because I could not afford an implant at that time. This actually creates additional complications because the molar above it has nothing to resist against.

My current Cosentyx treatment (for Psoriatic Arthritis) is more than a monthly Mortgage payment on a five bedroom house. I am fortunate that I only have to pay a certain percentage of it through the 'Trillium' program offered here.

Two months ago, capacitors on my desktop melted. So, had to get a new desk top. Then there were problems with the car. And so on...,

These situations always happen at a time when you feel and know that you are making progress.

Through all of this, I managed to keep perspective and understand that the most important thing that I have going for me is to keep my yearly membership active here at WA.

Why?
Because it is ultimately my road map out of my current financial misery.

I feel for you, my friend and really value your open and candid 'reach out.'

Excellent post.

Things will all, eventually fall into place if you do not give up the 'lifeline' offered through the WA Learning and Earning platform offered here.

Keep us posted with your progress and your ups and downs. Both negative and positive serve as inspiration for others.

Kindest regards,

For: @PMindra

Paul.

I have an old Acer computer that lost its hard drive in early 2015, making it the second time I lost one right after paying my WA subscription. The first time occurred in a Pro2000 computer I had, that had Windows 2000 ME on it right after I joined Wealthy Affiliate. Now this, the third time!

I pulled the Acer computer out of storage and quickly realized why I couldn't do anything with it back then. I had a number of hard drives I could have put into the Acer computer. The computer has different, much smaller connectors on it and all of the hard drives required the larger ribbon-type connectors. I will be dang that LAPTOP hard drives have the same connectors and so I now have a working computer and don't have to mess with other peoples' computers. I am the proud owner of five broken laptops, the one where I got the hard drive from, given to me, which allowed me to do the first installment of the WA Challenge, lost the display. The video card in the Acer is crap, but it has Windows 8.1 which is now updated.

I made headway this evening using stuff I already have! It's after midnight and I'm ready for bed. That took a lot off my mind!

Just like you, losing the tooth in question would produce the same issue you have - not having a tooth below to occlude to, and would be missing all the molars on one side of my mouth, even though the upper one remains. The other side, I'm missing three molars. I have to have the dental work done and am scheduled to have the root canal done next week. I was shocked at the price during the consultation. This is what happens when you don't take care of your teeth! Two years ago I went through the same procedure but it was about half the cost then! It will take me two or three months to come up with the rest of the funds. Fortunately I made a recurring yearly sale which will be available in July. I have a member paying monthly as well.

Hi, Daniel.

I guess that the moral of the story war to keep WA going.

Have you thought about 'Data Destruction' as a niche within your local community?

I am thinking about it and doing some research. I think that I would only require a Drill Press and a High speed drill.

Will touch base with you again.

Be positive.

For: @PMindra

Paul.

No, not thought of that. I do enough destruction to my data without drill pressses and high speed drills :)

LOL.

Have a great day.

Over and out for now.

Paul.

Daniel, I can definitely relate to some of the struggles you mentioned..it's ab it eerie how we have 2 similar issues:

I just got one of my teeth pulled yesterday. The reason I got it pulled was that a little over a year ago, I was getting some major dental work, mainly on that tooth. They put a temporary crown on it, but my insurance would not cover the cost of completion of the dental work. Since I am without a full-time, paying that $1300 was just not an option.

Again, it was a temporary crown...it took several months, but it became a daily occurrence of the crown popping off, often when I was eating. Had I had enough income or money in the bank, I could have dealt with this a year ago.

Back in March, I opened up something from my laptop that I shouldn't have opened - basically, I got scammed into thinking Microsoft was attempting to "help" me. Fortunately, no money was lost. But, as a result, I was without my laptop for half the month.

Once the repair was made, I was a happy camper...until about a week later. My laptop charger just stopped working. I then spent the next 3 weeks buying and returning universal laptop chargers, which just happened NOT to fit my laptop (it wasn't until the 4th attempt that I finally bought one that fit).

Needless to say, I lost all but 5 days in April...only 5 days on my laptop for the whole month of April. That was definitely not on my "Things To Do" list.

I felt discouraged, frustrated, angry annoyed...with most of those feeling happening in the course of just one day!

But here's the thing, Daniel: My "why" is simple. I want to get to a point in my life when money no longer dictates my actions. Had I had the money, I could have paid for all of my dental needs and still have my tooth. Had I had the money, instead of wasting time looking for the best buy so I could save $40, I could have paid more and gotten a charger right from the manufacturer of my laptop.


In my mind, I was thinking, "I have to do this and that right now!" But these issues appeared. So, what did I do? Well, I was able to enroll in a 12-week computer program. I get to learn Microsoft Word, Excell, PowePoint, and Quick Books. Although I already know Word and Excel, I'll get to learn the most updated versions. I also get workbooks for each subject. This is a $2200 program that I get to participate in - FREE!!! Yes, I don't have to pay a dime. That's another story and I've already babbled on too much as it is.

Instead of looking at this as "wasted time" perhaps there's something you can do right now, while you're taking care of your business. You may not have access to a computer, but can gather information for new posts (I wish I could say this is exactly what I did, but it would be a lie. I only thought of it when it was too late)
Are there libraries near where you live that allow you access to computers? Can you reach out to family or friends to see if you can use their desktop or laptop? Perhaps in exchange for using their computer, you can offer to do something for them, like a barter system.

Good grief! I didn't mean to go on so long, but what you shred really struck a chord with me. Feel free to send me a PM if you have any questions or need some guidance. I'll do my best to offer support, Daniel.

Veronica

I will get with you after work. I have frankensteined a computer last evening (it's pushing 2 am now) It's not that great but it's better than nothing and I'm typing from that now. I need to have gone to bed two hours ago!

Daniel,

This all is just a test, and you will soon be past. Keep working, and soon posts from you will relate the forward movement again.

Life is full of cycles. Get through this one, and you will again regain your bearing.
Sami

Beautifully said, Sami.

Wow! I have not seen you around in awhile. Glad you are still here with us :)

Yes that is so true. This same set of problems has beset me more than this time around. I got one of them resolved now and hope to have a Dell laptop soon to replace what I have set up last evening. (See the post at the top. It explains what I accomplished.)

Jay Gumbs is now writing daily blog posts which describe what he is accomplishing each day, now in his second week, I will be adopting his publishing schedule to help get caught back up to where I should be in the Challenge. The outside work I do is tough and like other days, I wind up down soon after getting home and that wipes out most of the evening.

I just can't get as much done as I used to. The last couple years, I find I have less energy it takes to push forward. I have to force myself to get things done these days.

Hi Daniel.

It's great you are not giving up. Concentrate on what you desire, and not what you don't want. We get what we focus on period.

At some point the fog will dissipate and your vision will clear.

It happens at different times for us all.

All the Best,

Joseph

You are right. Thank you Joseph. For now I do have to focus on what I don't want - the present circumstances, but I do try to look above and beyond them and systematically hack away at them.

Daniel

I seem to find myself in a similar boat. I had all this motivation, and now poof it all seems to have disappeared. I stopped taking the evil Nerlynx pill, and just when I thought things were getting better, I feel somewhat worse again. Joint pains, and swelling, that I don't know if its related to the detox from that evil medication or something else. Then hubby cracked a tooth on Friday, an internal fracture is what they're calling it. He got referred to another dentist which he saw yesterday, and they will need to do a root canal, and the earliest appointment is Monday. A week away. Poor guy is in such pain. Sure they prescribed Oxy for the pain, but neither he nor I am a fan of it. Sure we have dental insurance, but apparently, they only cover a set dollar amount for the year, and it's highly unlikely they will cover both the temp and permanent cap that he'll need to get. Oh, and that is in addition to the $1500 bill I received from the hospital for my last ECHO/EKG, to ensure there is no cardiotoxicity damage to my heart from the Nerlynx I was on. I'm back to focusing on my short-term goals again, selling on my e-commerce sites and doing some freelance writing work. It just seems like when it rains it pours. Just when you think stuff is finally starting to go right, something goes wrong to muck it all up again. Hopefully, we can both pull ourselves out of this hole and get back to working towards our goals.

Hi Jennifer. I know it. It's all a part of life these days. Have to just suck up and do it. I have a number of unfinished articles and am in the WA Super Affiliate Challenge. the thing is, when you think you are finally over it, you find out very quickly that this is not so.

I'm supposed to be at work now, but things have even gotten in the way of that this morning and I'm now 45 minutes late!

I come home so dog-tired and often wind up falling asleep before I can even get involved with anything else, including my work on campaigns, etc. It's the same story over and over again and I would that this story changes and I get past all of this ruckus.

I would like to be able to show to myself, let alone others on here that I am serious about my business. I have been hushed by others on here for the very things I talked about above. It's why I rarely blog on here these days.

As for the medical costs, they will get paid, but it's a long, slow process and in doing, get behind on just about everything else. It is incredibly hard to try to get caught up and causes chaos with organizing. Thanks for responding. I hope for you being able to rise above the shenanigans as I need to myself. I never dreamed it would be so difficult trying to build a business and I started without realizing that I've been long a victim of mine own circumstances that I created in the first place by not taking care of my teeth, letting many other things slip, never having gotten much past abject poverty, or on the verge that any setback puts me right back in it. It's not fun and I don't wish this even on mine own enemies.

I've got to go. I am very late and the sooner I get the labouor work done, the sooner I can get home and try to catch up with something else. I realize I brought all of this on myself and have no other to blame. Now it's after the fact and am paying for my past mistakes.

Daniel

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