Another Day; 6:01 AM
WTF and what the hell!!?? Here I am, conscious and awake another day. Extremely cold and dark outside. My cursed bed left behind again in a silent and lonely bedroom.
Life is for those who consider and treat it like a blessing and gift. Not for people like and including, me..
Yes, it is true. Domestic cats do go off to die by themselves, when they get too old and/or sick. Damn, I can sure relate to and understand their behavior.
Patients with acute renal failure in the United States and most of the world have only one real option. Go on dialysis and wait to die before a transplant. The majority of kidney (and liver) patients can be on dialysis for years before dying. I am aware of that. There is more than one problem with dialysis for those going through it. It can make you feel so weak and sick that you can barely physically function, any more. That is NOT life or a life to me and I'm not even on dialysis.
The nausea and weariness have become too much to bear. That is what my mind says to me, as I sit here alone in my apartment and try to find the strength and willpower to finish this post. My current diagnosis is Stage III End Stage Renal Disease. Only one more left to go before the end and last stage. Then, death should come much more quickly.
If you want to curse me after you read some or all or part of this, I understand and don't blame you. Any or all of you. You have a life to live, family, friends, children and something to live for. Me? I don't. Just a tired, isolated, broke, and bitter old man who didn't want to see another morning come.
Now, I'll leave all of you alone. No apologies and no remorse.
Craig
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Haha, love it Craig, you've got the grumpy old man down to a science. I didn't see any follow me pages so I don't know if you have a website but this character will play like crazy in cyberspace.
Damo