12th Day at WA: A Journey Into Myself

byclarafelicia

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5 years ago

This is my personal note, written on my 12th day in WA.
I should have celebrated it earlier, when I finally registered as a premium member.
I remember how some premium members congratulated me, wishing me good luck and telling me they readily provide helping hands.

The lessons provided are well-organized.
I love the combination between learning and taking action because it minimizes the probability of being overwhelmed. The me who fears failure can celebrate each small win along the path given in the lesson. This place gives me a chance to take baby steps in big subjects I thought worth a few degrees, together with another beginner under seniors and experts' patronage.

Since the first day I became a starter member here at WA, this community continuously showers me with support and encouragement. This is my first time to be in a big community where we care for each other’s progress and success. It makes the journey less lonely and happier. More positive and optimistic.

I'm glad to be a premium member, marking my serious commitment to reach my success in online business. Lots of premiums told me this is a good decision I won't regret. However, while taking my steps here, self-doubt and insecurities about my capability to succeed still haunt me. And for the past few days, my mind numbed by indecisiveness about my niche.
With so many topics, blogs, and articles about how to choose it, I still feel something inside me doesn't tick.

I slowed down and rethinking my purpose. I quit my 9-5 job with a mission in mind: to help people like me, which I still hardly understand the detail. Yet, until today, I haven't properly mapped it. I'm faced with the bitter cold fact that I don't really know who am I. Not yet.
I feel pathetic to feel hopeless and powerless in the face of questions that have no right or wrong, a question without exact scientific answer. It makes me worried, numbed with fear. However, I also proud that finally I face my fear head on.

Now, I'm still working on it. I talked to myself, called some of my friends to ask them what can I do to help people like me, like us. Trying to find specifically which pain I want to ease from people like me. What kind of help I want and can offer to those like me.

This is my personal note, written on my 12th day in WA.
I tell myself to walk and persevere until at least 3-6 months ahead.
By that time, or each time I return to this page, let this page be a sweet reminder that I once begin with so much uncertainty and insecurities about what will happen when I quit my 9-5 job. I would thank the me today for taking this decision, while reporting that whatever the outcome may be, it's a journey worth having: a journey into myself.


“Don't be afraid of your fears. They're not there to scare you. They're there to let you know that something is worth it.”
― C. JoyBell C.