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Update: I am blown away, overwhelmed, and filled with gratitude at the response I have received and the kindness that has been given me. After I wrote this post, I thought of deleting it, because I felt bad for writing such a negative thing and perhaps give the wrong message to new WArs. I never expected to find such kindness and offers of help, and right now I have tears in my eyes, tears of joy and gratitude. This is truly such a wonderful platform with so many amazing people and your responses to this blog post have touched my heart in so many ways. I am filled with love and gratitude. Thank you, all, from the bottom of my heart!

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For my 80th blog post I wanted to announce some affiliate sales, I felt I was getting so close, but this is not the topic of this post. After 1 year and 3 months it still has not happened for me ... and I am slowly beginning to accept this ...

I just want to let you know that I am having a very hard time connecting on the internet right now. I am using an old, donated computer, which is super slow, and what used to take me 3 hours for a blog post now takes me all day ...

My work (school) lent me a laptop to do work for school, and I also used it for my websites, it was a super fast laptop, but two days ago I had to give it back, since the school year is over.

Someone left me a comment on my newest post, and I can't return it, because the website comments thread will not load on my laptop and when I clicked on the person's name I did not get to a website, so I feel really bad for not being able to return the comment - I know it came from the thread "need website comments". I hate not being able to do what I say I do, because I always do what I say. So, I feel terrible for not being able to return the favor. The commenter's name is Sasha, if anyone knows who she is, let me know please, so I can return the favor.

After three years of living with no electricity I finally got a solar panel installed, so I have enough electricity to charge my laptop, phone and use a fan, and it makes all the differene in the world, I am very grateful for it. I just always imagined to announce this feat with more fireworks, not like this ...

The thing is, today a company robbed me - literally robbed me - of much needed money, and now I don't know what to do. I hurried to the atm to withdraw my remaining money, so I can keep it. It's a long story with which I will not bother you, but the company made a mistake and is making me pay for i,t literally ... This has consequences and I worry about my next payment for WA ... I don't know what to anymore, For two months I bent over backwards to fix that company's mistake and it was all for nothing, it seems.

For years I told myself that I am a winner, that I am so strong, but I feel honestly very pathetic, I am 48, living in a trailer with an outside makeshift bathroom and a bucket for a shower. I have done so much for the community here where I live, but seeing how I live I feel like a loser. I have beautiful websites and am not letting them go, but I think I am just going to have to accept that it is not happening right now.

I will not be around as much, my laptop doesn't allow it, it is too slow ... I'll just work on my websites. If anyone finds out who Sasha is let me know and I can return the comment on her website.

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Fabulous news people ...

Someone sent Christine the entire amount to buy a new Laptop. Can u even believe it guys. I am so happy.

Always stay strong Christine and never give up.

Thank u WA community.

Aparna

That's awesome and it's not the only case. I know a girl was paid yearly membership by another member as she struggled to get by. This community is like no other.

Fantastic! Oh I feel the love!! This is fabulous!

Wow, Lenka! That is absolutely amazing! This community is indeed like no other. I will never forget the response I received to this blog post. I never expected this and I am truly truly touched.

Thank you to everyone for all your kindness, your support, and your help! This has moved me in so many ways. I will never forget it. The WA community is so amazing, and I am so happy to be a part of it!
Thank you, thank you, thank you!! From the bottom of my heart!

This is fantastic news. May God reward the Giver a hundred times.
Joseph

Indeed! :-)

Wow really!

That is absolutely awesome!

Truly moved Christine! and thank you so so much for sharing.

This no doubt may put things into perspective for many of us who have been able to read between the lines of your current circumstance.
I do believe that you will get there! I can feel there is still fight in you having come so far. Indeed, It's not easy to push water uphill, but I sense very strongly that you'll continue to have a great hope because hope is being able to see the light in spite of all the darkness.
Trust that although we are not there with you; we are definitely with you still. I look forward to seeing you come out at the other end and you'll remain in my thoughts
Much love
Orito x

Thank you, Orito!

Yes, I have hope, and I think that the fight will never get out of me, I have always been persistent. I feel strong again and the response of my WAmily here has also touched my heart in many more ways than anyone can imagine. I am truly grateful for it!

You have such a light in your soul. I'm so glad you are able to still be with Wealthy Affiliate.

Thank you, Jenna! I'm also glad that I'm still here and moving forward :-)
Thank you for your comment!

Oh, seeing your post with the update is so nice, this truly is an amazing place where you can say things as they are without worries what people think. So much support, so nice.
You are a strong person, Christine, a warrior, I'm sure you'll get it sorted out.
Success will come but in my eyes you are successful already having overcome all the struggles and not giving up.
Love
Lenka

Thank you, Lenka! Yes, WA really is an amazing place with many beautiful people.
I am sincerely touched by the kindness I have received, and I am filled with gratitude!

I understand that completely Christine! Try to keep the feeling of gratitude and happiness as long as possible, it will bring you more goodness into your life.

I always bring gratitude into every day, this time, however, I am overwhelmed with it :-)
This is such a beautiful community!

Christine, you are a warrior and winner. Whilst you are not living in your ideal situation right now you are an achiever and working relentlessly to improve your circumstances. Kudos to you for doing that and the strength it has taken to come as far as you have.
Sending all my best wishes your way x

Thank you, Mia! I am doing better now :-) I keep going.

I am blown away, overwhelmed, and filled with gratitude at the response I have received and the kindness that has been given me. After I wrote this post, I thought of deleting it, because I felt bad for writing such a negative thing and perhaps give the wrong message to new WArs. I never expected to find such kindness and offers of help, and right now I have tears in my eyes, tears of joy and gratitude. This is truly such a wonderful platform with so many amazing people and your responses to this blog post have touched my heart in so many ways. I am filled with love and gratitude. Thank you, all, from the bottom of my heart! This means a lot to me!

You're more than welcome, Christine! We're a family here. :)

Carletta aka C.N.

Yes, we are :-)

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles, Christine. You're one of the most active and dedicated members I've seen in WA.

I hope that company gives you your money back since it was their mistake, not yours.

We all get to a point where we question our lives, what we have accomplished, etc. It doesn't help when we compare ourselves to others. I've done it myself.

I've also felt like quitting it all since I haven't seen any results all this time. I'm almost into my first year, but it's discouraging when nothing happens no matter how hard you work.

I hope you sort it out.

Enrique

Thank you, Enrique. I am working on sorting it out. You have a beautiful travel website, hang in there!

Thanks, Christine! :) You do too.

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