Riders on the Storm!- "SOS!.I can't find a sandbox!"

bybrichnow21

1.6K followers

6 years ago

Good, morning, World, and my Sandbox!! No, surprise, sort of change in game, plan...

Last, night!

Last, night, my, son, Russ called, "Hey, Mom, it's snowing!! Sure, 57 degrese, misting! Ha!-Ha!

This, morning!!...Gee, Houston, it's hard to be humble!! Let's set another, World record!!!

Beautiful, morning...God, right, out of the box!! Bam!!

Okay, gang!..Continuing, with, Maslow...I was, floundering, around, in the "lack of love and acceptance", pool of confusion...not, quitting, anytime, soon!! However... one, can't compromise, the Spirit...without consequences!!

Ship, ride, was the Hope...quickly, smashed...Vacation is over!!...WE move, into a penisone, rented for the year, in advance!...All, bases, covered, there! ...Arriving, in, Milano, Italy, at "l'universita per strangeri"...University for Strangers!...Sounds, inviting, aye?...Looking, for that Sandbox!!...Ever, get that idea, that you didn't fit, in anywhere??!!

That, was ME!...Enter, school year, late...be, only, student, in my class, and whole, school, that wasn't military!!...Army, Brats!...No, offence, but, observation, and personal, stories, from many of them! Ha! Ha!...I, excelled, in Italiano, but, that was about it!!...Grew, up, around languages...rather, difficult, to ignore, the ear! Funny, probably, at 8 I was, more open, but, my sister, and brother...not, really...Sister...only grade, ever, a D... speaks, Serbian, Russian ,and French...ha!...After, school...home to the sandbox... it was, coming on the holidays...this, little, spirit, was plagued, with sore throats, colds, etc... I was in prison, and no way, out!

Chris, And Marina...they, could go to friends, after, school, or go, shopping!! No, I had to go Shopping, with Steffie...our live-in, maid...only, time ever, for, that...but, the au pair, idea??...

Okay, time for a Back ME, Track!...I,mentioned the compromised, Spirit..."Wayback, machine"...April 21, 1952!...Buffalo, New York!... I ,was, without, a hitch..."no anesthesia... she wouldn't wait!!"...Prior?...Question, came up...do I keep this baby, or..."Mom's words...I could, feel, you were life!"...Children, are God's gift...doesn't matter the timing. Thank, you, for your words, Mom...

I, arrived, in this, World, same day, as Queen Elizabeth II...became, Queen Apparent, Feb, 1952...upon, death of father, King George, VI...coronation, June 6, 1953!..

She, still, reigns, today!! Things, I knew inherently, or learned...She, was special...we share, birthday..Hmmm. maybe, I'm special, too! She's, not very popular, either...doesn't compromise!! Next, tid-bit, of spirit!!...

Both, brother and sister, Christened, in gold, font Episcopalian...Greek Orthodox...Marble! ...

That's, my font, folks...Christianed, in the, basement, of, Buffalo, home.August 12, 1952...

Grandpa, Christ...I was, his pet...Grandma, Gladys, Chris, ..Behind, Mom, and Marina...and, Me, being held, by Episcopalian, God-Parent, Lorraine...

"This, Christaning, was in Eastern Orthodox, fashion, with full, emersion, into, water, bear-naked..."Barbie, didn't cry once!" ...In, attendance, Father.D..St.Stephens...Bishop, Scaife, and Canon...Episcopal, clergyman!'...the dicotomy...of..religion, within, Jesus' houses..Hmm...Notice, the font?!! Haa-ha! Mom, said there was a ribbon, on the otherside, of the washtub!!...I haven't, been able to take, things, seriously, for quite, awhile!!

My, humble, beginnings...never, regretted, that...how, cool, is, that??.. I, had, a Bishop!!

Back in the time, machine, to, late, October...winter is setting, in...Dad and Mom, had, some woman, over for dinner...they'd, met, on the ship...Probably, the French, Guy!, at table, that night, don't, know, don't care, just speculation, Steffie, and I shared a room... I heard her, wake, up, my Mom, to, something, not right, with, Dad, and woman...Don't, know, why, the other, 2 didn't hear it, but...I did!! Dad, had to also, escort, said, woman, home, as no decent, woman, were out, unchaperoned. I, don't, remember, any further, discussion...but???

November, rolls, around, and Grandma, Mabel, wrote, Dad..."Find, out what the kids, may, want for Christmas."... Marina, something, Chris, something, and something... "Barbie.?.".I, want to go home!"...I've, had alI can stands...!!...Misery, nasty, cold, Christmas, in Paris, France..."Barbie! You're getting, what you, want, for Christmas!! We're, going, home!!"...But, travel first! We'd, been , taken, out of school, before break, unbeknownst, to, me...Secrets, piled, higher, and deeper...Where's a shovel, for this sandbox?

Anyway, I was, happy!! Trip, across, Europe, Orient Express, Dad, loved, trains, and each, Engine, became, a Marklin, History, lessons, metric, rails, vs, American??...There's good, one..."Hey, Mom!", in Yugoslavia, after trip down the Adriatic...IN January!!...What's..."Vota Communistica!!...why, no Nixon/Lodge and Kennedy??... Toto!!...we're, not in Kansas, anymore!!...not, even, close!! All, went, well!

Ship, leaving February...

Time, for a song..."Wreck of the Edmund, Fitzgerald!"

(I apologize...any ads, pop-up, or songs...I, almost had a meltdown, bear with me!!)

Heading, home, finally...Grandma, Dad's, lived in White Plains, so, we kids, were informed, that, WE are going with Daddy, to see, Grandma...Mom's going on to Detroit, by, bus, alone! Not!!..."No, you said, I was going home!!...I'm going with, Mom!"...end of discussion!! I went home, with Mom...saved, from the rest, of the shipwreck, barely!

I, set out, with my natural, spirit, Taurus, lots, of Aries...Mars, in Scorpio!!!...Locomotive!! Haven't really, stopped, self-actualization...What did, I, have to do, for myself, given, these gifts?!!... Hmm...Teaching...Greeks, really? Family profession...Grandpa, was a Highschool teacher in Greece...'no speaka da, English', yet!...Restaurants, and groceries, not bad, businesses, during the depression...Grandpa, Ike?...Electronic, genius...patented, radio, tubes...owned Radio, station, in Buffalo!...WGR...both, Mom and Dad, worked, there...early, on! These, are gifts of my heritage...running in my blood!...My, only, escape, was education!!

When, I came, back from Europe, back to Detroit...I suggested, this gal, in class, give, me back, my crayons...Probably, informed, the authorities, when request not met. Report-card, later, half, of 3rd, grade...back in February. "Barbara, seems, to want to tell the teachers, what to do!"...Gal, wanted to beat, me up...I waited, for my brother, before leaving...Mom's decision to put us in Lutheran school, next year!! another, Christian, fellowship??? Where, I, once again...did not belong!!...By, this, time, I, had, no expectation, real or unrealistic!! This, unexpected, Journey, had, begun, and I was going to survive... My, friends, were my source!! Still, are, today!...You, can't make old friends... Dolly Parton, and Kenny Rogers, do a wonderful, duet! They've, been friends, for years!

Here, at WA...we are building life,long friends!...Businesses, take time to grow, and that's the beauty, "We share experience, strength, and hope!"....BigBook AA. That, is, how I see, this "followship"! Our, primary purpose!! Magic! Nothing, happens, by mistake...all, in God's plan...which, I have come to rely, on, instead, of fight! Change, will, come!...How, do I, navigate, the curve...or, tree limb, crossing my path!...All, in a day's Journey... . "One-day-at-a,Time!"

Friends, aways came first!! I, skipped, over and over, the need for "love and acceptance"...I. found, that. in a way ...Caused, problems, when, I failed, to call, if I needed anything...Oh, well!...

Promise, to wrap this, up, tomorrow, but the point is really, that continuous, need for acceptance, was why, the bad, marriages...I know, I settled, for less, than, God, wanted, for me...stepping stone, however...I am today, very, loyal, and passionate, about those, that I love...I have forgiven, the hurts, but, still, will, act on the negative, trigger! Self-defensive...I'm protective, of myself, and others!! When, I pick, a battle...I win!...I, don't fight, much...really. I, do, have, really, good boundaries, and protect my sanity, and keep my peace of mind! I am able, to face, "Calamity, with Serenity"!!

First, Step!! I, must '"accept", that which I cannot, change, and change, what I can!...Wisdom'? comes with practice!

So, I hope I've, cracked the youtube, deally...Things, I've, learned, while, whirling, around, with my site, waiting for answers...I went to, youtube...step-by-step...got cool free download...we, are making, progress...Added, 8 plugins...and I know, what they're supposed to do!! Asked, Chat...about uploading youtube..."don't think, possible...maybe a link??" Aah!...copy down, link, since, cut and paste, isn't being cooperative...type, it in... and...Viola!!...Now, if, there's a blank, again...I'll be back to the workroom...looking for more clues! My, problems, were solved...Thinking, outside, the box, with a "Can-do"!, attitude!!

Thanks, all, for listening, reading, and sharing, your time!! I, plan to focus on a particular Tarot, from fool to world, as just an item...God willing, I'll have much to do with my sandbox, website!! Maybe, every other day, so, folks, that want to may, not be rushed, but grow in understanding. I, tend of assume, too, much, so, I'm slowing it down...

Launch date for "12 Steps for Everyone!... Sandbox without Walls!!"... Dec. 21, 2017!!

I'm working on Bic, lighters, with site on it, for 12 step folks, candles or or cigarettes!!... to go, on launch, date, to check it out!! ...Did, I say, Dad was, With Chevrolet, advertising, earned a Clio, for commercial, inspired, by, Venice...I have, the framed, faded, photo! Love, it!!

Creating, a buzz...I spoke with, a new seed...recovery, with schizophrenia,..interesting little group!! "Oh, yes!! Call, me!!...write a bit?..sure!" That's, what I'm getting, when I go to prospecting!! No, volunteers, thank you!!

Getting, to work, on site...after, tip-toeing, around the sandboxes!! I, must say, folks...The titles, are getting far more interesting...Did you notice!?...Still, skip, tech stuff...when just visiting...See, ya! soon!!Later,

God Bless!

Barb